♥Daily Blog: Something Feels...(Pt.2)

i need to take these chances this week to express my happiness with him...

haha

I know that i'll be dying later on...but...i can't force him to be someone he doesn't want to be. Even though there is the guy in him, he has to want it to achieve it.

I'm not like the person i was before, for i have changed in some way. I think i've improved in some way...

And to know that i've done something that only true lovers can do,

I'm glad to know that i do love this guy a lot because i realize that my love for him is true.

i can feel it, and i can witness it.

This happiness i must express because the future is unknown to me. i used to see it so clear, but he's gone, and the future becomes blurry for me.

I want to show him this happiness of mine in loving him...taking every opportunity i have.

I feel my throat burning, but it's okay.

I've said too much to him today, and i was hoping that he'll counter it and say something that gives me hope that what i feel would happened won't happen.

But...it didn't happen like that, so i guess...i need to prepare myself.

He means a lot to me, and i've done a lot..to even improve myself for him...

At least i've done all that i can...and he knows that i love him by now...

so...

i gotta smile in front of him, even though i'm crying inside...

he needs to know that i'm happy being next to him...especially...while i get to have him to myself..

Treasure the moments.

I'm choking on tears but...

hey...this is his...decision...