♥Daily Blog: Endurance (Pt.3)

"Naw, Saturday won't be the last day."

How I wish that were to be true.

But for that to come true....I'm not even sure what needs to be done....

He hasn't realized anything...yet after today...he's still doing it....

so what the freak?

From what's he doing....worse things he do...

I'm afraid that even I MYSELF can't think of a way out of this...

Before....the solution to stay together was that he realized what i need him to realize and sincerely change...

After today...there seems to be NO solution....

I can't think of any, can you?

I mean...after today...

he clearly said through that action "I don't love you, and I don't care. But you are very faithful, honest, and have true love feelings for me. So I will start hiding things in order to keep you."

1. He doesn't love me.
Why? He's just getting around things better, he freaken doesn't love me. Seriously...why would you lie to someone...keep the truth from someone? Why would you continue to hurt that person?

2. He doesn't care.
Why? He doesn't care about my feelings. I'm hurt, and he just continues to do them.

3. He keeps me.
This is actually good though...because he's probably keeping me due to the fact that he knows i love him a lot and only him.
However...he doesn't love me....he just knows that...I'm willing to do a lot for him...

*sigh*

Maybe he'll let me go too. Well...I can't do anything right....

If he loves me...he'll hold on to me by doing...some serious thinking and solving things.

But in truth...how can he explain what happened today?

Furthermore...I doubt that he was disconnected just now...

More lies?

I'm getting tired of this...

either he loves me or he doesn't.

From the bottom of my heart, I truly want this relationship to last forever.

But....I can't...pursue to that...while he disrespects me along the way....

"Nothing's changed" meaning..."He hasn't changed"

As long as he doesn't change....

I have to let him go because he won't even change back to be with me.

He chose to leave me. Not I, but he.