♥Daily Blog: Know

I do want to go on with him.
I do want to go on and on.

But what will it be like? Would it be like before, where both of him and me were happy, in love with each other, and devoted?
Or would it be entirely different, like this?

That's what I'm wondering...that's what I need to find out.
He wants freedom, yet before, he never questioned about that...he just gave me love and...loved to love me.
So why is there something new, all of a sudden?

I love him a lot...but...will he be happier if i let him go? Of course....doing so would kill me inside...but...will it make him happier? I guess one of the questions is...
Does he still love me? Does he still care? Does he still want me?
If not...then I don't want him to stay if he feels that he's forced to.

If he no longer needs me...would be okay to not see me for one week (this week, nothing at all except wednesday morning...but that doesn't really count), then would he be happy if I let him go?

I hope he understands what I have meant from saying this part...
I love him a lot, and I very much want to go on and on like he said. But how will that be like? Or would he be happier if he's not with me?

Even if I dono't want to let him go...if he no longer loves me and need me, then I don't want to keep him in prison, for that's how he might feel.
Because I truly love him...I will let go...if I have to...if that will bring him happiness...no matter how hurt I will be...no matter what happens to me...
As long as he is happy.

I hope...he understands that everything I do...I think about him more than I think about myself.

If he still loves me and that guy in him is still there...then I would try my best...again, to contribute my part into the relationship and hopefully...I am needed...hopefully...things can be the same...hopefully, he will be happy.

I will go on with him forever and ever...but what will the path be like?
Furthermore...does he still need me...
Where is my place...in his life..?