The first humans were created with four arms, lets, and eyes, and two noses and mouths. Afraid of their power, Zeus split them in half, leaving them to find the other half of themselves. These people are called our soulmates.
O_O wowee
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T (8:47:58 PM) : i just want us to have like a realtionship
T (8:47:59 PM) : where
T (8:48:09 PM) : we have no fear in saying anything
T (8:48:13 PM) : or asking anything
T (8:48:20 PM) : and having an answer
Sometimes I wonder if the missing bracelet is a symbol.
Ever since it's gone...everything else along with it...goes too.
Today...was awesome, though. He surprised me by showing up...I couldn't help but to smile as soon as I recgonized his car.
I'm kind of silly, huh? Smiling with the fluttering feeling inside me...
Seeing him today...was another gift.
...But...we only have...one day this week..
Back then...there would be Saturday...and even when I was disappointed because we didn't meet up on all our days...there was still Saturday left.
Now...officially...he and I will only hang out once.
I wonder how many times has he said "Just this once."
He felt the difference of my kiss for the first time today. Apparently...I was overwhelmed with sadness...I guess, even when I prevented myself from crying in front of him, the sadness went through my kiss...
However...unlike him from before...I still kiss him with meaning...I was just...too sad to open my mouth more. Overall...I still kissed him with love.
Everything...appears to be the same again....but before I could feel entirely happy and relieved...
Some things aren't the same. He went home early now....I wonder...did he even want to make thursday and monday up? Probably no...
The anniversary was never celebrated either...
But what can I say? He won't make love to me anymore. He didn't even sit in the same seat like he usually would. I was lying there the whole time...
I wonder...did i make the right choice by giving myself up to him before? He seems tired of me.
I don't even think he loves me the same anymore.
Perhaps he's back...well...maybe it was an illusion...just when I thought he was back, I realized that he wasn't.
So as one can see...I do try to be happy...sometimes...i don't even try...i just get happpy whenever i see him...no matter what...but then...because he's not back...eventually, my smile becomes a frown...at the end of the day.
I never wanted it to be this way...I just want JayTee back...the JayTee's true bond...
I still need his answer...I wonder if I would get it today...unless...I've already gotten it? Based on the way he sat far away from me *sigh*
Face it...Jen. He's gone. The bracelet's gone...the cell phone accessory's gone. Why do you keep on hoping when clearly he won't come find his way back? Stop looking at this stranger's status, look at your prince's status...go over old IMs.
And...stop yearning for this guy's love...he's not going to make love to you anymore...
Go back...to reading your journal...and experience the feeling again.
Go to sleep...and if there's a beautiful dream...hopefully...you will sleep forever with that dream.
t (1:05:23 PM) : mmkay
t (1:05:24 PM) : im
t (1:05:25 PM) : soo
t (1:05:26 PM) : sorry
t (1:05:33 PM) : ill make it up to u somehow x.x
J (1:05:45 PM) : it's ok
t (1:06:07 PM) : no i said i would x.x
J (1:22:29 PM) : so u plan on making it up to me somehow?
t (1:23:55 PM) : yeah
t (1:24:00 PM) : i shall xP
J (1:25:30 PM) : it's okay.
t (1:26:50 PM) : naw
t (1:26:51 PM) : its not
t (1:26:54 PM) : i said
t (1:26:55 PM) : i will
