"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."
"Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there’s been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I’m there. Any time, any place, anywhere."
Well...he is my best friend...but...maybe i was never his.
The person you can't get over: That one person who drives you mad, but also has always been there for you. Sooner or later you will both realize tha.t it was meant to be and give in to the fact that you two belong together.
Stop pretending that the relationship has to be perfect and start realizing that perfection comes in giving into true love.
Aha! true love! i knew itWell...he is my best friend...but...maybe i was never his.
Jennifer took the Who will you end up with? quiz and got the result: The person you can't get over.
The person you can't get over: That one person who drives you mad, but also has always been there for you. Sooner or later you will both realize tha.t it was meant to be and give in to the fact that you two belong together.
Stop pretending that the relationship has to be perfect and start realizing that perfection comes in giving into true love.
I was very shocked after my rehearsal today...but I'll discuss that at the end...
Today was an exhausting day. I was pretty much the last person in CC to go in for rehearsal...almost everyone was there already...i was...a bit late...and my teacher just shook his head at me...i should have come...earlier
I kept feeling the need to sleep during Anatomy. I just don't get this class. After seeing that I'm having this teacher for the class, I immediately have a feeling that my goal for 4.0 is doomed.
Stats teacher is annoying. Stupid points. I did all the work for nothing.
We read a great story for English today.
Jordan was interesting. I didn't have food to eat and I was sitting there being tortured by all these people eating. Choir people sure eats a lot.
Some boy was going around asking for food, indirectly, of course. It was so sad...but a bit...eh
Being in the top group rocks. No one annoys me and everyone is quick. Not stuck with chatty people and students who don't take the class seriously.
Many girls complimented my hair today. The beaded thing was beautiful and i got noticed a lot o.o
So I guess my boyfriend does make me look pretty.
well...ish?
I was happy, eager, and well...I found out that i didn't have to go to practice today.
So I immediately called him. But when he hung up, he didn't say "I love you." My mood went down a bit, but I just shrugged it off.
So I waited for him...and waited. Always waiting as usual. I was happy that I get to spend time with him today...even just a bit since I don't have practice today.
However...he came about 3:40
Even worse, he didn't pick me up at the right place -_- He always picked me up at that grass area...why would he go somehwere else.
And that's when I just couldn't hold it in anymore. My face grew hot, and burning tears were dropping down.
I skippped practice for nothing.
Not only that, but...he didn't even know where to pick me up.
I wanted to talk to him...telling him about my day...so badly...but as always...something always have to happened...
He makes it so difficult...
All I want is for him to know where to pick me up and remember to say what he usually says and mean it...i wanted him to come early so at least we can have 10 minutes to ourselves.
But no, he came at exactly as planned.
His kisses are empty. They're completely empty now. Light...not really a kiss either.
I don't believe this. It's happening again...that tragic thing might happen again...
Because his kisses are empty...
He dressed very nicely today. His hair was neatly combed and he wore contacts.
So he dressed very nicely today AND he didn't wear that stupid bracelet.
So he was rushing...had time to dress nicely and have neat hair...and put contacts on...but didn't have time to grab the bracelet?
And he always look so nice when he goes to school.
Yet when he goes to hang with me, he dresses whatever. He would just wear glasses, simple and plain clothes.
I feel weird...sad...down.
He doesn't even dress nicely for me or present himself nicely for me and in front of me. Yet, he would go to school dressed so fine.
So great. he wants to look good for others or should i say...girls.
well i don't know that...but...seriously...he would dress nicely to impress..
and...so far...he doesn't even want to look nice in front of me.
it's weird, isn't it? don't we dress nicely when we're liking someone?
So if he LOVES me, why doesn't he even dress nicely just for me and in front of me?
yet...he dresses so nicely and presents himself so nicely for school...which makes me feel...
worse.
And then he didn't even want to kiss me at the end....
He was just doing it later bc i said something -__________- and it was also empty.
...it's...it's ending....i'm so afraid...this is all...
deja vu...i really hope...history won't repeat itself...the bad parts...of course....
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"Inside Charlotte Russe, waiting for _____________ to try on some jeans. It was nice to spend a shopping day with my baby."
how...how...cute...
they have...they have shopping days...and the boyfriend likes it...
and my lover doesn't like it -_- he gets sleepy and doesn't even help me choose things...
i don't even recall having shopping days anymore...shopping days...as in...shopping for the whole day...
and he doesn't even enjoy a shopping day -________-
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I want to be loved so badly...to be uncondionally loved by him...so badly...
It hurts so much...when loving someone with all my heart...loving to the point where....
"Dude, you want a guy who is healthy and doesn't have any sickness. You don't want to have to take care of him," someone once said.
And I would disagree with that person. I do want him healthy...but if he's sick...like for example, he has asthma, it doesn't matter. I don't mind taking care of him. I love him and having any kind of sickness won't stop me from loving him. Even if it pains me to see his suffering, I won't leave him.
No matter what...I will always love him...and that's uncondional love...
but....it pains me sometimes...when i feel like i'm loving too much...loving too honest...too pure...and...he doens't love me the same way and more.
I...I also think that I'm not that bad looking....
They say...."Would you rather have an old wife who is loyal and faithful...or would you rather have a young pretty wife who is unfaithful?"
And...and...see...I'm loyal...and faithful...and I'm not that bad looking...
But...does he even liike who he has...? I....I avoid eye contact whenever i respond to questions that guys ask me...I distance myself...and I know my place.
He can always trust me...going anywhere...he can always trust me...even if he choose not to...he can if he wants to...because I'm only interested in my lover...and...I wouldn't betray him...ever.
I don't want to be shared. I don't want him to feel like he's sharing me.
No, he has all of me...completely all.
I actually care...and...isn't that...a good quality?
Yet...he doesn't seem to appreciate that...idk...is caring a good thing...?
He still gives me...silences...
Why is he like this...why must he not know where to pick me up...why must he not want to come early? I skipped my practice for him...I wanted to spend a little time with him..but...it turned out that i skipped it for nothing...
my priority is always him...
and his priority...is something else.
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I was very very shocked today when I got out of rehearsal today. I had a text message from him at 4PM....
I was...very surprised...he...he actually...texted me...a little way of crawling back to me...
he didn't...he didn't leave things as they were...
he actually..apologized ish...
I felt...I felt...a bit better...a bit...happier-ish?
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"Save The Last Dance For Me"
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the music's fine
Like sparklin' wine,go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks if you're all alone
Can he walk you home,you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
