♥ Daily Blog: Ruined

I want to get out of school at lunch.

Good-bye Spanish. I just wished I could get an award for conquering that challenging class with Zuluaga.

Somehow I got an A+

Somehow it didn't matter.

For such a challenging year, it was the only class I totally aced.

I'm a failure.

Can't accomplish anything

No matter how hard I try

I just can't. I'm not a good person.I don't even deserve to have what I aim for.

It's just life.

My fantasies are farther away from me.

I can no longer see them nor can I differentiate between what I like and what I don't.

I'm blinded.

Lost everything.

Failures for senior year and summer so far:

-dress for senior pic
-gained weight during that trip
-tummy fattened even when i'm starving myself
-novel
-learning piano
-learning guitar
-not able to write out my songs
-did not compose a song to sing for choir
-room's a mess
-no summer job = no money saved
-dream costume not made for halloween
-calculus
-japanese
-drawings


what else?

all the things that are important to me besides him...all those things i've planned...not single one of them was accomplished

looks like he's in a sad mood or something. he rarely listens. first time he tries to listen

but nothing can be done. everything's vanished.

fjkjfddkfd

dang it

senior registration and photos

August 18????

i'm dead.