♥ Daily Blog: Summer Has Ended

Magic 8 ball received.

feeling guilty
eh

well at least he didn't got me the lambs

gave him the bracelet

he wasn't thrilled

i thought he wanted me to make him one.

i knew it...it's a girl thing. maybe 12 hours wasn't enough to decide and make it?

I watched the Unborn with him. It was scary.now to think about it, it was very scary.

ate some popcorn shrimp and fries.

eh...i got nervous and ate while i shouldn't be eating them. i guess maybe it was best to not have anything to eat.

i just found out recently that he and i will be seeing each other only two days.

summer has ended. last week was the last week of summer for me...three days with him...one week with three days

and next week? two days. this week? two days.
summer has ended.

nothing is settled.

nothing.

i understand though. i understand that he and i can't risk anything...

but i had to ask in order to find out

it's like...inviting but i got rejected.

summer has ended.

summer....has officially ended.

i wonder what will become of us once school's back.

we won't have full days with each other anymore. furthermore, due to the schedules...

we might end up meeting one day only...for two hours max

either way...no matter what...no more full days....

summer has ended.

summer has ended...

insecure...more than ever...

how did it happen? idk...is he really going to keep what he has planned? he told me he will keep and is keeping his promises...

but if he's just going to make circumstances as excuses for breaking them and/or not keeping his words...

it's settled. i'm insecured. i still love him. trust him to a certain point.

other than that, it's settled.

right now, i'm so insecure. i think it just went down to 25 percent >.<

there are few circumstances that are acceptable...like emergencies...example if his mother needed something and he had to get it...making him late to meet me..that i can understand

but if he's just going to allow anything get in the way...

what...is....love...

now...i question his love for me...

i'm scared. i don't know what to believe...

just smile and take his words...and don't believe them?

i value honesty so much...why can't he dedicate himself to fulfilling his plans and promises...for me and for us...