There's this thing that I updated, and everytime I look at it, I suddenly let go of all the past hurts.
Instead of being hurt from flashbacks while looking at it, I was...glad.
I didn't realize how far he and I were walking until I looked at it...we've gone through so much together.
I love him with my whole heart. Everytime I look into the future, he's there.
But...then...there are some itty bitty things here and there right now that I must not look pass. I wish for they to be settled....
But hey...nothing's the same...I've done something that he didn't...what can I do? It's vice versa this second time around...no turning back...everything's different.
lol...perhaps...it's ok to cry in bed every now and then...I can't do anything about it...I've done what he didn't...I couldn't wait...I felt like doing it...and besides...not like the first time anymore. No more eagerness. This is beyond my control. And...I need to accept that I can't be loved more.
So...it's ok to cry in bed every now and then...and it's ok to sit here having tears drip down from my face.
After all...this is as far as my luck goes.
I love him, and that's all that matters.
hm...a new day....i hope he's recovering from yesterday. Now I start to wonder if he even ate any meals o.o
...*sigh* well let's just hope that's he's alright.
*yawns*
oh yeah...I woke up finding myself hugging (not putting my arm around) Miki! The scene was sooo adorable...he was curled up between my face and body...he was next to my neck and I was cuddling him while sleeping =D no wonder I had such a wonderful sleep....lol i don't care of Coco is better looking than Miki...I loveeee Miki and always will...don't care if he's ugly lol...actually...he's very good looking for being part chihuahua haha.
hm...but i still love him...despite how cute and beautiful Coco is...
I <3 Miki =]
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How Do You Love Someone?
Mommy never told me how to love
Daddy never told me how to feel
Mommy never told me how to touch
Daddy never showed me how to heal
Mommy never set a good example
Daddy never held Mommy's hand
Mommy found everything hard to handle
Daddy never stood up like a man
I've walked alone, broken, emotionally frozen
Getting it on, getting it wrong
How do you love someone, without getting hurt
How do you love someone without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...how do you love someone
I was always a chosen child
The biggest scandal I became
They told me I'd never survive
But survive was my middle name
I've walked alone, hoping, just barely coping
Getting it on, getting it wrong
It's hard to talk, see what's deep inside
It's hard to tell the truth, when you've always lied.
How do you love someone, without getting hurt
How do you love someone without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...how do you love someone?
How do you love someone and make it last
How do you love someone without shrinking on the past
So far in my life clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love...how do you love someone?
~jen-jen
