♥ Daily Blog: Oh...

How did it become this...

Nothing new anymore.

Is this the only thing he wants now...is this just for his satisfaction...

If he and I do other romantic things as well...I wouldn't mind with this other thing...but seems like that's the only thing we do now

I wouldn't question this if everything was good like before...

How odd...

Not on for a few days...it all stopped on 6/30. How strange.

I guess I'll delete it by the end of this month. No use for it anymore.

Yeah...I don't mind what he asks for...it's just that that's the only thing I see now...everything else is empty and quiet.

I can't even talk to him. There are no good things from the past that are in the present. None.

Sadly, those good things were the ones that made me happier.

Nothing happened. The little things...even though they may appear insignificant...well those little things actually contribute a lot.

Simply done. I can never heal. If things happened the way I wanted on the 1st, I could have been healed. That was the only chance.

Now...the scar has become a wound again due to the things that did not happen.

Even though I'm glad for the things that did...those things were not enough to heal me. It wasn't even equal. It was actually less compared to last time.

No se....

I will stick to my words now...that's it. I've made up my mind. I already gave it a couple of days..but this is too much...when the 1st didn't came out like or better than last time, the scar had transformed into a wound already...but even when i gave a couple more days...nothing. The wounds are reopening themselves.

I stick to my words now. I've been thinking about him and doing what's best for him..but...

*sigh*

nothing can be done now to change my mind

Nothing.

~jen-jen