♥ Daily Blog: A Quick Thought

All of a sudden...it's all different. He doesn't seem to appreciate the things I do for him anymore. I'm not a good poet, but I do write songs. Furthermore, it was hard for me to go with the flow typing yesterday...I was paranoid by something. But...even when I stayed up to have it done, he didn't really appreciate it. He just lets it go.
Even when I made him rolls last time, they must have taste bad because I'm not even sure if he appreciates them either....

And...then...he doesn't even remember to bring me back my box and give me the book he told me he can give. *sigh* and I always remember to give him what he needs the next day..always returned the box he put food in for me...without being reminded...

So..as one can see...I put him first. I always remember. Who loves who more? All I can do is just give love...but...I guess somewhere inside my heart, I do want to be loved more.

But..impossible...I love him too much already. There's no way that I can be loved more...it's impossible...at least...that's as far as i can see...

*sigh* but as much as I post up posts about how I feel very...not on the good side and how I wish for this and that....I just can't be without him. Without him, I'm incomplete. I love him, and I just wish that July 1st would have been like November 1st turning into real life with some new good things. I just wish that he had been excited or whatever how he felt on November 1st and flatter me and update his info and site before I do. Looks like...it's the other way around now.

kinda tears me everytime i think about it lol.

oh well.

~jen-jen