♥ Daily Blog: Good-Bye

Plans are ruined once again.

And we all know how I feel when my plans get ruined, now do we?

So I stayed up late last night and woke up super early. I couldn't make a snack since my parents would wake up.

Heh...things happen for a reason, eh? He couldn't come either and last time he said he'll have a good excuse. Today he said that he forgot that his mother was home. So like...he knew that his mother would be home and had a good excuse. Did he forgot?

I'm getting quite pissed off. I'm not even sure if things happened by accident or were those accidents and being late thing the excuses?

Whether if I'm more insecure or not, I'm whatever now.

So he asked for comfort. And now he doesn't need it.

I even hoped that plans could have worked out in the evening. It turned out that he came late. How the heck am I supposed to receive anything?

Well if the thing got stolen, I guess a good parting with him was never meant to be. So I guess this is our good-bye...last hug was Monday...last kiss was Monday...last time I saw his face was Monday.

He's not open much to me anyway. Well, he won't need to worry or be stressed anymore. Heck, he's not open anymore lately.

So like...I'm going to finish packing up my room and tomorrow, my family and I are working on the living room. We're close to getting things done.

As for him? I don't know. I planned something today...nothing worked out today. This whole week is stupid already.

Might as well just leave it alone.

changes...changes...the dangerous thing while changing who i am is when things interfere and I get pissed and irritated in the process. I might not change to be who I aim to be for him. I'm not sure what I'll become. I just know...that I'm about to be different.

Oh yeah...family is so lame. We went to Costco today and I wanted those peanut butter and jelly crustables and like...they wouldn't let me...and that's my favorite snack/meal. -_-

While my parents let my sister chose a box of three pizzas that cost a dollar more than the food i wanted to get.

selfish.

even i can't eat what i want to eat. might as well not eat at all.

i don't even know what a date is anymore.

The moment he signed on his cell phone this morning, I rushed out...thinking that he was there. but he wasn't. one excuse to go outside was gone.

he didn't come at all.

seems like we can't part right.

i guess this is it.

more to be posted later.