♥ Daily Blog: Almost Perfect Day

If I hadn't seen my ap scores, I would still be happy...

Well, I knew what I was going to get...but I was hoping that I did better than I have expected. That's where I was wrong.

Oh well....I accept responsibility for the month of May. I could not focus, finished my homework last minute...didn't get enough sleep...could not study...basically...eh..hell

I freaken cannot stand my dad. I don't want to eat dinner, for I already had a big lunch. Of course, I couldn't say that I had lunch because then they would ask how. I didn't even go to the gym today...and now I'm forced to eat...I'm really not hungry..it's nighttime too.

fjkdfjkfj this is stupid. and Mother gets jealous because I could go work out while she couldn't. Now she's making me eat and tell me to work out less. jfdklfjdkfjdk what's the point of going to the gym if i'm making no changes?

I only have a few days left on my trial thing...and so far...I still have fat here and there...

Even my aunt said that i looked better than last time...because I'm "very fat." heh...

Mother gets jealous, sister is annoying, and Dad's simply pissing me off.

How am I going to survive for another year...kfjdkfj I can't even apply for a faraway college...not going to make it...but if i go away...would it be better...

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Despite at home stuff and school, today was amazing. Okay, I was very angry to the point where I cried this morning. For one, my dad was home and getting out wasn't easy. Second, I came out, and he wasn't there. It's dangerous for a girl to walk alone...and I hate it when I have to walk all the way around...some dude was staring at me and i HAD to run so fast to the other side.

I was crying from being to angry...I got inside the car and just need to release it...but..then I apologized since I could not hold it in. *sigh* I was crying out in the streets too. -_- that was how angry I was.

But then he and I apologized to each other and make up. lol I was surprised at how fast we let things go. And then he helped me drive a bit. I kind of got the hang of the brake thing and how hard to push.

He and I went to his doctor's place. It was very interesting. I've never been to a non-Asian medical place except the hospital haha. So yeah...oh yeah...and old lady thought he and I were siblings...and then she guessed if he were my husband. lol...hm..though he's not my husband, the sound of it kind of made me smile.

So yeah...they took a sample from his throat, etc.

Then we looked at fishes and stuff. I saw some cool exotic fishes and plants lol. I even get to see a starfish and seahorse!

The beach was great. We took pictures, eat, and dipped apples into this amazing thing lol. so...peanut butter and jelly crustables or whatever...and crackers with tuna...and of course...water...cept his water was flavored with rasberry something.

It was like a picnic and it was under the pier. Really cool.

Then we walked along the seashore...along the waves...lol we hugged everytime the waves came in...i was so scared to be washed away. We clung to each other most of the time.

Then we asked a very nice man to take us some pictures. The pictures were great.

Then we walked up to the pier and asked several people to take pics for us...but there was only one young guy who seemed nice and took pics for us and I felt comfortable asking. so yeah...then we walked back...lay on the blanket for a bit..then head off
We drove around...parked somewhere...and...basically had our personal moment. I must say that this is one of the best ones...if only it was an hour or so lol. I actually like it when his body is "no" me.

hm...i really think he's the one...the feeling is just too great...and no...it's not because of male and female...more like...perhaps we are soulmates bc it feels so right with him...and i'm comfortable with him even without those personal moments.

*sigh* lovely day...

~jen-jen