♥ Daily Blog: 1:04AM

can't sleep

i hear gunshots again



He is a wild guy, and I've always hoped to be the girl who can tame him.
That is all. As much I want to feel that I do tame him, seeing that I have to mention about it to him indicates that I don't have "the whip," because I have questioned myself about it, and I wouldn't have done so if I do have "the whip."

And if he decides to do something about it, how long will it last?

Just as when he told me to stop talking to the "stalker," I did so knowing that it bothered him. I trust him, and I'm okay with him being protective of me. In fact, I feel quite flattered.

And when he told me that he was " a wild beast" that only "i can tame" and that i "have the whip," i feel as if i was the luckiest girl at the moment. so much trust in me...that's how i feel...i value trust so much...and when i feel trusted with managing every part of his life...i feel...trusted and a good person.

I do not seek to dictate anyone. Being controlled is when one is doing something that he or she feels uncomfortable doing.

If he loves me and truly does, he would not question that. I do hope that I can tame him without "asking for permission."

Perhaps that is why there are not many happy couples and lucky girls. The ones who are lucky are the ones who have their "men" to love them enough to not even care what the ladies do with them or any other aspect of their lives. Thus, the men did not feel uncomfortable due to true love and complete trust.

Relationship isn't about domination but rather to be "someone's someone" and to have trust.

Gentlemen leaves it up to the ladies.

I need a journal soon. I'm trying to limit myself right now...and I am...but hopefully I can forget...so then I can wait without restraining my thoughts until I can get myself a journal to fill in details.

He is a wild guy, and I've always hoped to be the girl who can tame him.
That is all. As much I want to feel that I do tame him, seeing that I have to mention about it to him indicates that I don't have "the whip," because I have questioned myself about it, and I wouldn't have done so if I do have "the whip."