♥ Daily Blog: Solution

After five hours of sleep, I've finally decided on one thing.

Let it be. Even if I'm not happy with the things he do, being with him gives me happiness enough.

He's not going to see what he does is not okay or etc. A person can only change and stick to it only if only if the person himself/herself sees the reason for the need to change and is willing to do so.

Just let it be. I can't do anything about it, for I can only mention them and make a fool out of myself.

Let it be....I can only hope for good results...but...i dont expect them...

but...i do hope for the best....and expect for the worst. Perhaps I wanted a good result yesterday, but I didn't get it. However, I didn't expect any good result. Heck, I kind of knew that nothing will be done once I leave myself open.

But if it pleases him, then i guess that's good for him?

Let it be. Too many times I tell him, too many times I give him what he wants....but even though I didn't expect anything...I was hoping.

I feel as if I'm really tired now, everything I do just drifts him apart from me.

I'm not sure if love has a price...but I guess if there is a price, for me, the price of love is to give up what I want and hope, and just make him happy.

He's just right for me...at least the basics, then yes. But then there's this and that that he likes to do.

....he can do w.e. he wants...my words to him are like water flowing through one of his ears and out the other ear. there is no impact on my words to him..

so...i'll just let it be. i guess...i can be extremely happy to the point where i'll be an optimist 80 percent of the time if my hopes come true...

but every so often...every now and then...even IF he does and be what i hope for, there will be a wash of worriness over me...about what will become of him and me...there will be a time where he'll be so busy...and I'm going to be lonely. Of course, he has work to do...and I respect that. It's just that...I'll be lonely, and I know it.

but that would be the only concern in the relationship IF everything else is settled...

hopefully....for any future problems, we can solve them better....mainly bc i will know for sure that he and i both love each other truly, and it's not just me who's loving.

but...that's hope, right?

let it be. idk anymore.


i'm...confused...


but let it be...i just want peace....