♥ Daily Blog: 5 AM

Hope:

He will be a faithful, proper guy. If he talks to girls (like repsonding or w.e.), he keeps his distance.

ok...here are some examples that i saw from other guys:
1. the guy didn't talk much. just nodded, say what's needed, etc. politeness.
2. not playful. but dang, the guy was playful with his gf, that's for sure.

so eh...those are real life examples i saw.

Actions:

Actions along with words. Like my yesterday's blog or something...communication proves things clearer. confirms that the words are genuine through actions. eventually...trust is formed

real life example: this guy made a promise to her but something came up. however, he knew that no matter what, he must fulfill that promise somehow.

2. this guy loved his lover. his lover needed to sell some things but she was sick. the guy skipped class and helped her sell.

3. she didn't like the way this and that. he immiediately fix it out of his own will bc he loves her.

Honesty:

No excuses. I hope he doesn't promise me or tells me things but then behind my back, he secretly does them...

Expectations: None.

dk anymore. i just hope. the three above this is what I want but can only hope. it won't happen, and i can only hope that it does.

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I was watching Secret Life and this phrase came up "Women don't want an offer. They want to be loved."

So true...

*sigh* I just want him happy. Even if it means that I won't get what I really hope for...at least..at least he and i have something...even though it's not official...

I've been staying up all night. Tired. I didn't realize I was tearing up. Eh.

If only he does things and gives up things and feels happy about them...they might be temporary...-_- great, now i don't feel so good.


eh..well whatever i have now, cool. just want him happy...and if i have to deal with certain things..i'll deal with it until my health calls me to stop. i don't want to force him into anything. i can only that he realizes some things and don't feel the need for them. if he can see that there's no need for them, or if they were wrong and decides to change for me or give some things up for me, then i can feel completely secure. well 1 percent insecure due to "unofficial." but eh..not going to happen...he doens't seem happy giving anything up.

idk anymore. i've pulled an al nighter....can't go to cs now...

what did i expect? that he would listen to my problems and fix them? no, nothing was done...and that is why i don't have any expectations. i cna only hope...but no...

so what's the point in being direct if by answering his question makes a fool out of myself bc the answer has no effect or has anything.

no expecationas. just hope...and even now..i'm not sure about anything anymore.

i appreciate what i have so far...i'm too scared to do anything now....just want him happy...