♥ Daily Blog: Hunting

I don't jump to conclusions, but seriously, _ doesn't seem to care about me in that kind of way anymore.
Lately, my temper wears thin a lot. Okay, I admit, my heart is getting iced a lot more now.
Eh...well think Jen, if so girls are out to get him, and he does become tempted, then his feelings for you were never true. haha i mean seriously, there were guys who tried something, and I just turn them flat down. (well ok, nice way)

but yeah. then again, i must say that there are so many inconsiderate people out in the world. seriously, girls are so selfish. "omgosh he's single, my chance!" *sigh*

i don't really care though, although I am curious. but...whatever..if he does get tempted...well i guess he's not faithful if he does still have feelings for me. then again, i just doubt that he doesn't care anymore.

lol he knows that i'll always turn around. then again, he's prob. wrong. if i see nothing, i'm just going to walk out of his life. apparently, even as friends...it's cool. however, he's the same old him to other girls, but toward me, he treats me like im one of his guy friends.

furthermore, i would actually bet 200 bucks that there's no doubt that he treats others better than me. heh..feelings eh? If he still does, he would want to be around me. instead, he doesn't seem to care.

i may be blind at times, but i'm not stupid to recognize things.
whatever. putting my feelings aside.

OH I'M MOVING ON TO LEARNING TO PLAY THE GUITAR NOW. haha..piano is the hardest to play, and if i can play just a little bit of it, i can do the guitar. =D now...i just need to find one...cheap, simple, and good for a beginner :]

besides, i have composed songs that require guitar.

i wonder if that guy in my church scouts is still selling his guitar :]

muahahaha >:]

now i need to see if i even have money for a prom ticket D:

still hoping for something, but i'm not really relying on it. i only look at one person, and if my feelings are unrequited, i just hope that person knows that my feelings for him are true. as much as i would like to be around him, if he doesn't feel the same way, i can only walk out of his life because i rather love him from a distance than to be treated as a nobody when i'm around him. it doesn't matter what he thinks he's treating me as, but if i don't feel right, then i'm not being respected. i know that somewhere deep down in this new mask of his, that there is that guy i fell in love with, the guy who DID truly loved me too because he would turn down many things for me. True love was in my grasp.

but whatever.

lol i think i'm ugly to him now anyway. hahaha. yup, jen's ugly.

*sigh* why oh why do i have to be a Virgo in this area...?

You tend to be cautious about falling in love. You sometimes avoid involvement by taking small defects in a person and blowing them up out of proportion as major character flaws. You hold yourself under a tight rein, because you fear that your feelings will be exploited by someone unworthy. What you want in a love relationship is someone who will regard you as special. Curiously, however, when you do give your heart away it's often to the wrong person who will not appreciate your fine qualities. When someone does appreciate your qualities, you will forever be devoted to that person. You have many virtues. You are refined and intelligent, loyal and sympathetic. Often you are an imaginative writer and teacher; you have an excellent business sense and a quiet but witty sense of humor.

=O

soooo true...



anywhooo.....HUNTING FOR GUITARS =D