♥Daily Blog: Looking

Looking back, I realized that if I could have applied to more UC's, I would be accepted to them.

Furthermore, UCI should have accepted me. Perhaps if I had no bf during my junior year, I would have still balanced my classes out well and get a C in Calculus at least. OR, I could have gotten an A in calc and a C in my science class.

But I'm stting here right now, not blaming anyone.

I'm a hardworker, I'm a hardworker in school alright, but I guess when it comes to someone precious to me, I put that person before all things.

Just because I couldn't apply to other UC's doesn't mean that I was rejected from all of them. I'm a better AP student that the students who made it into UCSB, so I'm sure I would be accepted if I had applied.

Same goes with Davis.

Not sure about San Diego, though. Who knows..

What I do know is...

Thanks to him...

I realized that grades aren't everything.

I may not have the perfect grades...

But at least my grades are still awesome...I WAS ranked number 14, after all.

Furthermore, I have a heart.

It was thanks to him that I finally understood how much a person can mean to me. I was willing to do so much for him...
I love him, and I would always make time for him.

I do wish that he would love me for the good qualities that I have.

Weighing the cons and pros...

Am I really that bad?

He is the reason to why I still have the energy to walk.

I walk in hopes of being with him soon...
I walk, hoping that he's behind me.

I want to be the one who brings joy into his life.
I love him.

Very much.