♥Daily Blog: A Song

Today, i woke up and called him.

Then I went back to sleep.

Surprisingly, he called me back in the morning. It was nice to see that he called back.

Well, I won't be able to hang with him until friday..

So...for now...i seem okay but then again, i'm just faking it.

What happened to us, honestly? From seeing and hanging with each other 5-6 days a week to hanging with just 3-4 days a week to just 2-3 days a week to one day a week.

This relationship is dying, especially due to the fact that he's not doing anything to fix anything.

Whether i give up or not, it makes no difference because he's not going to change, and he's not going to fix anything. The things that i do don't make much of a difference anymore; perhaps it's time to step aside because things will only work if the other person actually does something that is needed too.

anyway...i watched the most touching dog movie ever! <3 akita inu
Hachiko is so cool! No wonder it's been so faithful to the owner...the owner treated it well (:
If I'm treated well and loved well, i'll be so persistent like that dog too. I mean..i'm already faithful even when I'm NOT loved...-_-

anyway...i got the usb to work! I just came up with another song! anddd i got a little bit of the intro down too!

it's awesome...i can now play and make the music on my keyboard, and the notes will appear on my software thing. it's awesome..i jus tneed to fix the note types and stuff...

i wish i were better at piano...then i would at least finish half the song today -__-

but not bad! i'm heading somewhere....i might be able to perform my song at pop concert =D

anyway....

i hope someday the guy my bf used to be will find me...whether he'll find me in my fantasy, who knows...

When I'm faithful, i'm dead-on faithful...no breaks...no breaks at all. My faithfulness is a continuous line connected to the person i love.

But if i see no connection being communicated with me...despite how much i love the person.....if i see no effort, no changes...no understanding, and most of all, no true love...

i will gradually let it slip...gradually hand the rope to the other person...because it's not me who's in charge of it, but the other person is.

I remember telling him this once: Once it's gone, it's gone. Never going to come back because...it's been there for much too long...and yet...nothing happened...

I'll be watching this relationship die in his own hands. Wanting him to change, but he doens't love me enough to change, to fix and improve the relationship.
He's not concerned with the relationship...

So, the only reason why this relationship is still going is because i have been holding onto the rope...gave in more effort to take the replacement of his empty participation...

Now that it's in his hands, it's definitely going to fall apart any time soon.