♥Daily Blog: Know Nothing

After crying throughout the whole day today
After crying last night for hours
After not eating at all
After crying this afternoon

I realize that there's only one thing left to do.

I already told him, asked him...

to do that one thing i want of him

If there's love at all, he'll do it and his heart will stay with me

The reason why? I realized that I gave him two or three chances, and nothing happened.

I then realized that i could pretend to give him 10 chances, and he would blow them off in one go.

I do love this guy, and right now i'm staying with him. Hopefully he can see that.

But i guess...this is my last try, my last attempt

I'm adding another thing to my New Year's Resolution list:

If somehow fate finally brings him and me closer together by he actually do change in doing that one thing for me, the one thing i ask...

I promise myself that i will always remember that act of love for him, and i'll try harder to not assume. As long as he searches my trust, as long as he ends up giving what i want most from him, i'll always remember that miraculous act that he has done for me, and in turn, i must show my appreciation to him.

Until then, I need to cry less, wipe the tears, endure the pain.

Little does he know, i really love the way he's always so protected of me. Many times i would picture him taking care of me and stuff.

I wish he can protect me from part of himself by giving the one thing i want..

Other than, i'm always his...always haven been his...

I needed someone who is stronger than i am, and perhaps...he needed someone who will need him...

Just one thing i want from him...if i do get it...i will never deny the fact that he loves me again.