♥Daily Blog: Junk

Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 2:10PM


I feel as though I'm unconsciously trying to fill this emptiness that's inside of me.
I dropped by at Volcano Tea today and ordered loads of junk food and my favorite drink, Japanese Green Milk Tea.

The food was not good, but I ate it while I spend an hour and a half dividing parts for me and my partner for the presentation.
So far, I'm fulfilling my schedule of today.

I guess deep inside...I'm suffering from depression. Wanting to think that he's alone right now...that he's not hanging or being or talking to any chicas....yet...knowing that what i want to think is just purely my wish that's impossible to be true.

Food. All it does is filling my stomach and satisfying my starvation. Same goes for my drink. It only fills my thirst.

Materials. All they do is temporarily lightening up my mood and taking my mind away from the reality for a bit.

However, none of those satisfies my soul. There's a hole in there that nothing physical can fill it up.

I guess that's how we can distinguish real love from a love that isn't true.

When you feel loved, you feel complete. Filling up a hole that's in the soul is something that your special someone can do. It's something that ONLY a special person can do.

Someone who truly loves you will fill that hole of yours. If you feel incomplete, if you feel depressed...well, that's because the person doesn't truly love you.

Often times people don't know what they really want until much later in life. Very few people know what's necessary.

If all you want in life is money, materials, and anything else that's physical...you're not really grasping the deeper meaning of life.

Most of the time...it isn't until you reach a really old age that you'll find out what you really need in life.

Be carefree, but learn to recognize what is important and when to get serious. Be considerate, be responsible. Be honest, and have morals. Sometimes you'll be lucky to have second, third, or even four chances to make a change and do what you should have done. But you don't always get the chance(s) to fix your errors.
Many times, you only get one chance, and that's it.
It's just like life. Once you die, that's it. Good-bye. It's over. Life isn't like a game. There's no Start Over button. You're done.

Then there are times where you're extremely close to dying, and you don't die in the end. Perhaps that's when you realize the many things that you have never realized before. Perhaps that's when you want to start living a life and do the things that you feel the need to do.

But, that's all up to chance. If you're close to dying but you don't die in the end, well chances are that you're lucky and you're given another chance to live.
If you end up dying, I guess chances are that luck isn't on you're side and you're not given another chance.

Thus, this is why some people get more chances than others to fix or make a change. Of course, not everyone is bright and able to grasp the deeper meaning of things to even realize that when given more than one chance.

So, my dear fellow readers (I mean, teddy bears), what is love, really? Is love selfish or unselfish?

"Accept me as I am." Oh, how I love to argue against this idea. People are now overusing this idea to their self-centered-ness (Yes, not even a real word).

When you ask for someone to accept you, are you asking that so you can get away with hurting someone's feelings? Or, are you asking to be accepted as someone who will grow into someone better?

In a relationship, if you're being accepted, that doesn't mean that you can do whatever you want and not consider your partner's feelings. Someone who accepts you appreciates the many good qualities that you carry and still loves you for the severals flaws that you have. HOWEVER, he or she trusts you that you love him or her enough to recognize the things that you do that may hurt him or her.
He or she trusts you to bend to his or her needs at times.

Nobody is perfect. You can only find the perfect imperfect person, but you trust that the person will try to improve for you if that person really wants to be with you.

Be yourself BUT be unselfish. Love is something that is unique, for it is something that happens naturally AND challenges you to be someone who doesn't think of him or herself all the time.

Of course, people nowadays take the meaning of acceptance in a way that gives them the benefit.

We are all capable of making our special someone happy.
If that's who we honestly love, our goal should be to give our someone the joy of life.

We would be doing ourselves a favor too if we are less selfish and more understanding to the pain that our special someone goes through.

In the end, that special someone will stay with you forever....and will stay even if someday something bad happens to you.

Maybe right now, nothing big happens. BUT, there will come a time that you will realize (hopefully) that what you really need is someone who loves you wholeheartedly.

When you die, how do you want your soul to look like?

What we do in life adds up in the end. You can be the most successful person, but that's not going to get you anywhere after you die.

Were you selfish?

Were you unselfish?

If you have lived your whole life making another person happy, indeed you are very unselfish. Furthermore, you know what true love is. It is something that many can't do, something rare.

Something that doesn't seem like a big deal to you may seem like a big deal to someone else.
Something that you think is harmless may apparently inflict a lot of pain to another person.

If you really love her, don't do what you know that hurts her. Make her happy, think of her needs. You're a man, right? If not yet, well, be a man. If she's really your treasure, cherish her. Have a strong heart. Protect her. Love her. Make her smile. Treat her the way she wants to be treated.

If you really love him, give him more than one chance when he comes to apologize to you. A second chance can really make a difference. It may seem really hard, but give a second chance at most. If he messes up again, well, at least now you know that he doesn't really love you.
Honestly, I've seen some guys who messed up the first time, and they actually would really change and fix things if the girls have given them another chance.
I guess what I'm trying to say is....be forgiving. At least give the guy a second chance. It may be very worth it when you find out that he truly loves you enough to make things better.

Love is not a decision, it's a feeling. If we could decide who we love, it would be much simpler. But much less magical.