Anyway...I went out and tried the pho ca rather than pho bo.
I must say that the banh pho is quite delicious, the broth or whatever is great, and the fish tastes amazing.
anyway....still working on his present...i need to finish my song by tm...
so much to do...so little time.
Two more weeks...and then....he'll be much further away from the amazing guy (and he's already really far away)
I feel really sad....but...what can i do? i've given him my faithfulness even through the uncertain times...given him faithfulness rather than disloyalty.
I've given him forgiveness even though he's not sorry, even though he hasn't asked. This forgiveness, however....soon....that's just it...forgive...and go.
Trust is like a piece of paper - once it's crumbled, it can never be perfect again no matter how hard you try to flat it out.
But maybe overtime....if you're persistent and truly have a goal to flatten that piece of paper...perhaps if you keep trying and be patient, it will be nearly perfect..almost perfect. And maybe if you add more things to it (which idk), perhaps it can be perfect again.
I've given him love...give and give...
I've been honest with him...have never actually lied...more like blunt sometimes...maybe too honest...but...at least i know he can trust me and should trust me...
Secretly, I do still hope...that there IS hope....
But...maybe he wants to let me go too...if he really doesn't want to change back and be with me..well i can't force him.
I've already given him the option....
In truth...I don't want this...furthermore...i wish he wasn't even like this or did all of those things....it hurts like sh*t every time i get flashbacks of it and my imagination comes clear.
But what can i do? He chose to leave me...i never wanted to leave him. Seeing that the guy i once knew went away, i feel as though...everything's gone. i mean...
He hides things from me now....omitting the truth...omitting info...still lies....
What do I do if the person i have once loved isn't the same person anymore?
Sure...sometimes...our personalities change temporary...but...if we really do love someone....we'll find ourselves back.
I realize that everyone does have to grow in some way....and that...when one finds someone whom he or she truly loves, he or she will grow toward that direction.
Everytime I look at the pictures I've taken of him...I would smile inside....
I've never liked anyone who is so handsome....which leads to i've never loved anyone who is so handsome...
This person I have since last year....and perhaps...until sometime soon..
He's very good-looking. I love him very much...a lot a lot.
Although the day that this pic was taken was terrible in the end...
At least....when this photo was taken....not only did it capture me and him, but it also captured the happiness i had at the time...
By all means...i'm glad to feel this love i have for him, the feeling to want to be there and to love even if he's sick or have diabetes or whatever...
I'm glad to feel this unconditional love myself.
January ends soon....what will happen...
"Never Knew I Needed" by Neyo (the second song on my playlist)...will this song...apply to him one day...some day...?
