♥Daily Blog: I Distinegrate

he wants to be free, but if he's with me...and loves me...isn't he free?

Does he not like it...? I truly cannot tame him at all. He's not mine. Not anymore. When one is being tamed, he or she won't feel it. He or she is free...free and everything he or she does...revolves around his or her lover.

But if he doesn't feel free, perhaps...perhaps...

Everything he's thinking...whatever his choices are, I know I won't be happy, for he said so himself. In that case, he's not mine. Not anymore. One shouldn't hesitate.
I have no answer, but based on what's he been doing, perhaps that's his answer. If I am wrong, i hope he defends his postion. But somewhere inside my heart, perhaps I already know the truth. I just need a confirmation.

I am happy of the time today. I love it.

But with no answer, no matter how happy I am with him...

There's still something missing. If only...today...can be good...without something missing...

Knowing that he's not mine...no longer mine...

The real happy girl he saw today, the gentle one...that was me...a brief glimpse of the person whom I really am...but..this...is the first and will be his last time...seeing her.

I let go...I let go emotionally...

If he's mine...he'll come back to me...if not....he was never mine...

Perhaps...he was only temporary mine...in the summer.