♥Daily Blog: Epiphany

A gentleman wrote this...

I wish I could see through your eyes so I would know what you like to see. I wish I knew your wishes, so I could give you everything you want. I wish I dreamed the same dreams you do, and together we could make them come true. I wish I knew what makes you happy, so I could make you the happiest person in the whole world. And lastly, I wish I were a cell in your blood, so I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart.

how...beautiful..

I don't know what to say, but...I sure hope his girlfriend realizes how lucky she is to not be the one crawling back.

I love my special person, but I don't have the core from him. And if she could step back and look at what her boyfriend is trying to do, she should rethink about it.

After the talk with her i realize that i still didn't get it.. that she was right... that i still haven't change... Even after that chat, i was still forcing myself upon her.. going around in circles... forcing her to accept me.. forcing her to do what she doesn't want... i deeply regret that..

if i could have the chance, i would do anything to make up for my sins, my actions, everything that i've done. as im sitting here writing this, little tears slowly falls.. but regardless i realize i have to do this.. this is my confession of my sins...

im not gonna ask from her anymore... i realize i cant and i shouldnt.. if i am, the only thing that i should be asking is what i can do for her... if shes willing to let go and allow me to make up and treat her the way she should be treated, i would do anything..

as a matter of fact im not gonna promise u anything.. lots of promises have been compromise and i dont want to risk hurting u anymore if that chance come... rather i will prove it to you through my actions.. ive learn a lot from this and even though i know there might be nothing left for me to do, i hope that a glimpse of light will shine through this storm.

I honestly hope and pray for him, because this is how good relationships should be. He truly loves her more, and he wrote an apology letter...including everything that needed to be included.

It is EXTREMELY rare, and it's definitely true love if it happens. Because all of this...covers 1/4 of the core that i want from MY special someone. In truth...if only my someone would do something like this...I would have healed...so long ago already...

Epiphany...and ACTION. Those were what I needed from him in order to heal. Furthermore, I want to be loved...I don't want...to be the one crawling back.

After reading that letter, I cried...for the person who wrote that letter is suffering...and heck, if i were the person whom he wrote that to, I would have been so happy.

I really hope...that his girlfriend will accept it...because...what i've always wanted...i could not have...and since something that rare has come upon her....i honestly want her to realize how lucky she is to have someone who would take the time and reflect...who was the one crawling back to her...wanting to fix.

I know...I didn't plan to blog today, but I couldn't help it. For now, there's nothing more I can say except...I hope one day...he will be the one crawling back to me, the one who loves me the same way as i love him....

that one day he will write something like that...and mean it...

but the most important thing is...to have him and i be where we were...to have the guy from summer...back

All that needed to be written...were all written down...in yesterday's post.