♥Daily Blog: Fixing, Overwriting (Pt.2)

He's been ignoring me...?

Well...tomorrow's the day...11:59PM...reaching midnight...

by the end of tomorrow...the beginning of the day after tomorrow...

It will be exactly one year...i wonder...what will he do at that time...would tomorrow be good? -___-

*sigh* a one year anniversary...yet...no one's excited...i was...but after seeing that he just doesn't have time to even see its importance...i guess my mood came down too

Anyway...the length of time for a couple together doesn't matter unless the two people are happy together...

it's the emotion...the happiness...the love...that really matters...and the longer it stays that way....

That's when the length of time is special

But...why isn't he happy? I don't get it...I really don't get it...to me...the anniversary is the most important day of the year...because...it's original...it's...our day...

And October 31st...was the day...he took me to the movies...first time...

Why isn't any of this...important to him...?

Instead...he's watching movies...ignoring me...

How can this be...

Well...I got my anniversary present...early...but it's awesome. i love it. it's okay if he and i don't really celebrate the day...the present is just a bonus too...

I just want the core...

I'm happy with what he has done for the anniversary...such a cute cinnamoroll...yay...

besides, when i asked him, his first answer was that that's all for the anniversary...so yeah.

pretty much it. it's okay. i don't expect him to see the day extremely special. anyway...he doesn't have money so it's understandable...

although he kept mentioning about the lunch money..-_- maybe he shouldn't gave gotten it then

eh...there are so many other ways...romantic and amazing ways...that he and i can celebrate...without money involved much...

then again...he's not emotional anymore...

so much has changed...the guy who had faith in his promises isn't here anymore.

So why do I keep hoping that he's still here? it's the anniversary...and the day seems...just normal to him -_- maybe...maybe that's enough proof that he's gone...

it's okay...it's alright.

at least...at least...he semi-see it special...

and I'm happy. I really am.

Besides...he even decides to lessen the normal things he do so then they will be more special...which isn't right....it just shows that...he loves me less...bc i don't deserve all of his love...

It's okay...it's alright....

LIfe is good. I'm happy. I really am. It's a fantastic gift...and that's the anniversary.

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My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

So be gentle...

I bruise easily