♥Daily Blog: Another Sigh

So basically, my lover isn't easygoing.

He treats me as if he were my parent.

"Didn't you already have an mp3/mp4?" he questioned.

If he were a gentleman and love me, he wouldn't question that...

If i like it...if i want it...there's no reason to question...

and...doesn't every true loving boyfriend/lover want the girlfriend/lover to be happy? Girls like accessories...things...etc.

I don't demand much...I really don't...and I know this because I do look at the majority of the girls...

Even the quietest ones i know...get to have their boyfriends/lovers adoring them...

And yet...my very own lover...questions what i like...etc.

And...I see boyfriends being okay with their girlfriends questioning, etc. After all, boys will be men one day. Girls will be ladies.

Though everyone is equal, in a loving relationship, a lady is feminine and a man is masculine.

A proper and loving man would adore his lady, let his lady tell him what to do...respects her...and never question her...

I know...most girls can't be trusted....but...he should know me by now. I truly love him...and I honestly...want a man (him) to love me...as any other loving gentleman would love.

And...he never knows what my intentions are...

He doesn't try to find out or wonder what I would like...or what might make me happy...

Do I have to say everything? Though I may like something, want something...I tend to not demand it or anything. If he sees that under my "okay" facade, I actually would be quite happy to get it, then....is it necessary for words?

I actually...feel flattered...admired....important...exceptional...whenever someone actually pays attention to me...even when I even don't want it...but...to have someone understand me with unspoken words...

I feel understood...that someone is there for me...that someone...really does...indeed...love me...and sincerely cares about me...

Maybe I have too many necklaces...maybe i already have this...or that...

but what happens...when i like to have a variety of one thing? It's not like...I want everything...I tend to narrow down to the best....only the best...that I like...

yet...i'm being questioned...and i'm a bit shocked....

Apparently, instead of my lover being protective and question about what i have for safety...i have him question...on the unnecessary things...

i....don't think...i'll be...one of those lucky girls who get to buy whatever she wants...

i mean...seriously...though i like a lot of things...i do...keep track of my money...i really do....