♥Daily Blog: Into the Rush

Love is one of the great challenges in life. But if with a kind, sincere and honest heart, you are already on the next level.

"People are like glass-stained windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."

I woke up late today. Three alarms could not wake me. Even with a clear mind when I woke up, the moment I saw the time, I panicked.

I don't know what to do. Then I remember, "Whenever you wake up at 6:10 or late, call me. I'll be there in a flash." well...something like that but yeah...same point

So...I dialed and called. and called. I heard ringing, and at first I thought I was saved, but then no one answered. After changing into my clothes while I waited, after three calls...I had to run downstairs. I used my cell and called again. Nothing.

There was no time for finishing homework. I could only brush my teeth and brush my hair.

I was a mess, but I was late. I rushed out.

So it turned out that...only the lab was collected, which I've done it yesterday. So...I was safe...for today.

But...it was close....too close....I was seriously a mess...I forgot my color pencils too!!!

*sigh* if i'm late again, i'm doomed. Even if I call, there will be no answer. I still have to rush to school...and I'm just lucky that my homework wasn't due today.

And as I'm sitting here...I wonder...would he want to see me today? Because he told me that he'll see me on either Tuesday or Thursday.

So now that it's Thursday, why hasn't he called?

Because..."he doesn't want to."

I never knew that distance really exists between me and him....he used to always wanted to see me...because he missed me...but now...the number of days didn't seem to matter.
If he had wanted to see me, he would have let me know or surprise...but...we're not seeing each other today...and he has specifically said that the next time we'll meet is either Tuesday or Thursday....

It's like...he doesn't have to see me anymore...because he doesnt miss me or anything. He's not even home.

Even when I call, he doesn't pick up and he has his phone on.

Now to think about it...even when he does call or leave a message, i don't hear any i love you afterward...

sometimes i wonder...how old are we...how come we don't say anything like that...it means a lot...

one should never hesitate to say i love you

bc if something happens, you won't even get a chance to say that to the person anymore.

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100% of me, myself, and I.
I've finally found words that describe who I am the most, what I think, what I see of life. What I see of...us....

Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood
Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath

Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway

We all have excuses why
Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies,
But the song he sings

Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway

It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up

Courage is when you've lost your way,
But you find your strength anyway
Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is when it all seems grey
Courage is when you make a change,
And you keep on living anyway

You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway
You keep on loving anyway

I remember when you walked into my secret life
I remember holding hands for the very first time
I remember when you kissed me and
I was so scared but some how I knew that you would always be there
And I remember everything

I don't know what life will bring tomorrow
But I want you there next to me
I don't know where I'll be tomorrow
But I'll remember you and me

I remember dancing in your arms all night
I was staring into your eyes in a circle of light
I remember your laugh and how we cried sometimes
I remember everything

I don't know what life will bring tomorrow
But I want you there next to me
I don't know where I'll be tomorrow
But I'll remember you and me

Leafs will change the world is rearranged
Why do we all have to grow up so fast
People come and go, walk in and out of your life
The ones that you really treasure
Will be with you for all time

And I know all the odds are staked against us
But I know the rules don't apply to love
I do know that you came to rescue me from my secret life

I don't know what life will bring tomorrow
But I want you there next to me
I don't know where I'll be tomorrow
But I'll remember you and me

I remember you and me
You and me

Glad to know you're out there
Glad to know you're fine
And it's good to know you'd never walk the line

Every hour that passes,
No one ever seems to change
And I wonder if your smile is still the same

Raise your glass wherever you may be
Here's to you and here's the same to me

It's good to know you're breathing,
Is it raining where you are?
What could you be thinking,
Are you looking at the stars?

Raise your glass wherever you may be
Here's to you and here's the same to me

Catch me some fireflies tonight
Staring at the open summer sky
Raise your glass wherever you may be
Here's to you and here's the same to me

I wonder could you be awake?
Or maybe you're asleep
And maybe you are dreaming of me

Take the blame off your back
It's a burden you don't own
Lay your head in my arms and I will be your home
you can't carry this alone

I just want to love you
I don't want to change you or judge you
I just want to love you but
darling you need to learn to love you too

I don't count every line this life has carved in you
the beauty lies in these eyes
because I can see the truth
I see the stregnth in you

I just want to love you
I don't want to change you or judge you
But darling you have to learn to love you too
I just want to love you

You've had your had
Your mass in stone
But you don't have to be alone
The thousands lives you could've lived
But you're the only one you need to forgive

I just want to love you
i dont want to change you or judge you
I just want to love you
but darling you have to learn to love you too.