♥ Rain

I'm writing a song...but right now..i'm listening to this song..

I didn't realize that...the song "Rain" on my playlist is applying to me 100%

You ever felt like, it's just raining
but it's only raining on you?

Have you ever woke up and felt like you didn't wanna live today?
And have you ever felt like the person you used to be has gone away?
If you feel like you're running and there's nowhere for you to hide
With the world on your shoulder, you hope that it gets better with time

It's like when it rains and it all falls down on your pillow
It's like when it rains and there's nobody there to turn to
It's like when it rains and you can't get out of it
It's like when it rains and you don't know where it will end
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains

Have you ever looked in the mirror and didn't recognize your own face?
The days don't seem to get any clearer, you wish you could just fade away
I know what it feels like, when there's no one for you call
With the world on your shoulder, you hope that it gets better with time

It's like when it rains and it all falls down on your pillow
It's like when it rains and there's nobody there to turn to
It's like when it rains and you can't get out of it
It's like when it rains and you don't know where it will end
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains

So don't run away from grey winds falling,
Open your eyes and realize it's only temporary,
It's gonna be ok

It's like when it rains and it all falls down on your pillow
It's like when it rains and there's nobody there to turn to
It's like when it rains and you can't get out of it
It's like when it rains and you don't know where it will end
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains
It's like when it rains

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I do feel like it's just raining on me. A certain period remains in my head...I try to forget..but it won't go away. The same pain has followed me to the present...and if NO ONE acts now, it will start to follow me to the future. It's raining on me.

Lately I wake up and feel like I don't want to be in the real world. I wanted to go back to sleep and never wake up.

The person I used to be was happy, energetic, and so full of life. Even when I get rejected...I found a way to pull my own self back up. However...perhaps now that I finally love someone so much more than myself...I begin to rely on him to heal my emotions...
I feel like the person I used to be has gone away...there's no way I can get her back...I've found my other half and now I'm weaker by myself. It's like that one movie where two soulmates found each other but each lover becomes weaker now that he and she has found his and her other half...bc...they rely on one another to take care when one is hurt.

I am running...and I cannot hide..all of these struggles are on my shoulders...all i can do is that it gets better with time...

Yes...when it rains...it falls all over on my pillow...for when i sleep...the tears shower my pillow

When it rains, i have nobody to turn to

I can't get out of it. I don't know when it will end.

I don't want to run away. Actually, I have been facing it. Dealing with it. Enduring it. Alone
It's supposedly temporary...but now that I realize that it has followed me here...it will be PERMANENT if NOTHING gets done

let us be okay. no...let him be okay. let him be okay...i do not care about myself anymore. i care about him.

I love him. Three words...

I mean every word...

he really has left me for the night...i've been on aim for hours..he has left me.