♥ Daily Blog: Torn Apart (Pt.2)

i'm so f*cked up.

i want to be someone he will be happy with.

my choice in clothing has changed. what i prefer has changed. i'm trying to be someone else. it's not right, but i don't think there's anything more i can do.

they were off at around the same time.

i don't think this is coincidence anymore.

i've lost him. he's not happy with me anymore.

but he's not pursuing his happiness...he knows what i need and what will heal me...he doesn't want that...as a result...my behavior is this way....thus leading to his unhappiness and stressfulness...leading to him....doing something...that he knows would hurt me...

i...don't think...i can do anything now. he just doesn't do things like he used to anymore...

i

am

sad.

lost.
confused.