♥ Daily Blog: The Point

What is the point of being excited for more free days when he won't use his free days to spend time with me?

Only saw him once this week. He's okay with that...i think.

well, i guess we won't see each other anymore.

i think he's okay with that too. maybe it's better if he doesn't see me.

as always, i plan for something, and it always gets ruined.

our time to spend gets decreased now.

there are no more jaytee days anymore. no more full ones.

i love him. but if this is how it is now, i don't know anymore.

no emails. no reminders. nothing.

college is near. what will become of us.

i'm only a high second priority for him.

"i don't want to be adored. I want to be loved."

currently uninstalling aim

it's ok.

he'll be at his friend's house again.

his free days for me don't really exist anymore.

stupid dentist day.

now that he went to his friend's house, he'll go all the time.

what can i do? he has friends and i don't.

on thursday, he had other things to do.

what did i expect? he being at home and thinking of me? puh-leez

i'm not even the center of his life.

live life to the fullest.

who knows.

accidents happen.

i guess he can live through the whole week without me.

i'll just won't see him for a month.

that's my plan.

i hope this plan won't fail.

time is decreasing.