♥ Daily Blog: Confronting (Pt.2)

So much for asking for peace and happiness between us.

what are birthday wishes for? ridiculous.

coco learned to sit.

i can hold the hamster a bit better now...still afraid to pick him up though

mother not going to brea mall. a nice shirt? i'm doomed.

oh, did i mention no fine looking portrait for yb? i want a nice picture for the yb for once.

He has a new puppy. Bl is happening, i just know it. Cute though.

"master"

Miki is my baby and a loyal close friend.

Hamsters already distract him...a puppy will do so much more.

always trying to come on happy and nice...but things keep happening and good things jusst don't happen...

i don't like acting this way toward him...but i get so sad and mad at times...

i'm trying to be his ideal person...someone whom he wont ever leave and will enjoy being with....

i'm still looking for what im capable of so i can be someone for him.

i just cna't be myself. being ignored hurts me a lot. if i change...at least i can use the excuse "i'm a different person. i'm supposed to be able to handle this."

loving him too much...

A picture...says a lot....the pain i have isn't healed...hard for me to express my words in a happy manner to him....idk when...i will be okay...but until then...even if that time will never happen...at least....a picture can show him my truest feelings...