♥ Daily Blog: Because

Unlike other loving couples, the special day isn't special.

The first of every month...never seems special to him.

I'm always the first to say it.
I've never had a date or a special day on the special day.

The first of every month...what does it mean to him...?

If he treasures it, the day would have been great, would it? He might even remind me that he has a new wish to add since it's a new month.

What does it mean to him...I can't believe that up until now, the first of every month is...normal and sometimes...nothing at all.

Then he planned a movie for July. He didn't keep his word.

I'm going to let things unsaid now. Im the only one treasuring and making memories for this relationship.
That is all.

If this isn't special to him, then what's the point with all these beautiful jars? What's the point for me to say anything?

If it were special to him, he would have remembered no matter what. he would remind me the little things about us...reminding me to bring him a new small paper the next time he sees me...try to see me...simply make the best out of the day.

What is the first? Nothing. Nothing at all. I've been wasting my time saying things that don't even matter to him. I've wasted his time and breath as well.

And so, I'll be a lover who won't do these cute romantic things that supposedly makes me happy.

I thought he was an american lover at leasst. i thought he likes these cute little things that contribute into improving the relationship.

I thought.

Now I know.