♥ Daily Blog: A Little Dip

i can never get the core

to hide and cover up how i really feel...i need to change

bc...if not...he's not going to be happy...

i should have done so a long time ago. i knew the truth, but i was in denial. i didn't want to believe it. i didn't want to believe this truth. and if i don't change, i'm being stupid, because i know the truth already...and i'm not doing anything about it...

one can't change another person. what i want...cannot be given bc...it requires something that only he can do

but...knowing him, knowing what he thinks...

it's impossible

so...what can i do? i've been living a lie more than half my life...i can change back and return to live in that.

it's ok. it's alright. just suck it up and breathe.

not every girl can have her happily ever after. if one does, she's special.

and chances for that...is slim.

i'm just a person in a majority...and i need to accept that...and just adapt to...this

well...two more days of gym...need to work out to the extreme...

bleh...Grandma's bday today...i have to go eat oily food...*sigh*

she's unfair...i respect her as a person, but who she is...i can't accept. she has caused my mother too much pain...

looks like i need to be a full on independent person now...paying my own house...getting my own things...buying myself gifts

i can do things on my own...but sometimes...i just want to be a princess...the lady...

but i know now that i need to be a full on independent girl even if i'm not single

it's ok. life is full of surprises...and knowing this...is just another surprise