♥ Daily Blog: Little Star

I must have taken things too far...
and now I regret Friday so much...
I've ruined...everything...there is possibly no one who can handle me...
And as I regret...I'm afraid of my own self...
Yet I don't want to regret...but I'm hurting inside so much...
Because this whole thing was my fault.
I should have never said things like that when I'm mad..
And I thought he knew...
I thought he knew that as much as I said it's over...it won't...I thought...he at least knew..my love for him..
And I'm sitting here...not able to focus on anything...nor eating anything...just waiting for his answer...
If there's a chance....take it...but what happens when...it isn't given...I never knew...that I would ever ask anyone for another chance before...I never knew...that he has meant to me so much more than...my former best friends...
And I wanted to go to prom with him...was too mad...that he told me he doesn't care if we match or not...I thought...
I guess...my dream of going to prom with hijm...is gone. What am I living for...