♥ Daily Blog: An Unforgettable Event

I stared after him, blinking my tears and wondering if he'll turn around. He didn't.

I wasn't allowed to walk across yet, but my left leg started to step out. Suddenly aware that the it wasn't time to cross, I pulled my leg back in, one second away from a car to really hit it.

The bus came at 5:15pm. There were only men on the bus; I was the only female.

When my stop arrived, I got out and casually walked home. I was focused on rushing home when a whistle that sounded right behind my ears made me jump. I didn't look back. I just ran to a place, checked if anyone was following me, then went straight to my house.

I need a break from this thing. This thing = crying = reality. Remember what the doctor had warned, Jennifer. I must not cry. Not this month.

My rate for yesterday was a 6.2

This morning, my rate was a 7.0 I thought each day of this month will improve little by little. I still thought that when my rate increased up to an 8.0 for about 40 minutes right after school.
However, in 30 minutes or so, my rate flew down to a 2.0

After staring after ___, trying to hold back raindrops (: , my rate went down to a 1.1

So, my rate for today is 1.1
I'm not going to wait until 12 to decided. It's final.

Nevertheless, I broke one of my rules -_-

So, I must not cry. No matter what, I will smile, because smiling does make a person feel a bit better even if he or she is depressed. Furthermore, I don't know what my average rate will be...so far...I don't think this will have a positive result. Therefore, I really must live each day with a smile. Think about it this way...if I really have five months left to live, I must live each day to the fullest =D

So, no more crying. If I cry, that means I've lied to myself =O And Jennifer doesn't lie >:]

So, no matter what, no more tears and only smiles. What happened today is a warning.

My goal is to bring happiness to others.

P.S. I adoreee this lovely sewn heart ^_^

~jen-jen