♥ Daily Blog: Some Things

Like most girls, I like many things. I like accessories, clothes, and etc. But unlike many, I don't ask for them. Sometimes I joke around, saying things that imply that I want this and that and I expect them. But the truth is, I don't mean it. I put what I desire in my own dreams. I prefer not to ask; if they come, they come. If not, then oh well. Sometimes when things come, I get surprised, and I blushed. lol...I do that because I never thought I would be that lucky. Still, I have no expectations. If they come, they come. I don't expect much.

It would be nice to experience my dream in reality. One of my friends makes me laugh all the time. What a guy should do, what should happen...lol she's real funny. Those are my dreams too, but I just leave them behind. Whenever she mentions those things, she brings back most of my dreams. I don't want to expect anything, because I'll feel worse if my expectations aren't met.

Smiling Pasta...may sound silly....but this drama reminds me a lot of what I like in a relationship. It makes me squeal, laugh, and cry tears of happiness. To live my dreams in real life is rare.

I think it's best if I'll be more careful not to slip what my preferences are...because anyone can try to fulfill them...aiming for something....and not doing them out of their own mind and heart. I rather not say much...it's better to be a bit disappointed than to have something I prefer fulfilled only because I "ask" for it. I don't ask for anything, I just wish. By now, I realize that if things happen the way I like them to, then I am lucky. But...up until now...I'm not that lucky. I realize that I have never asked for a poem, yet I received one. At first, I felt lucky...I mean...most girls I know have to ask or say indirectly on what they want in order to get what they want. Silently, I did want one, and I received one (even more than one) without even asking or implying indirectly. But then....I realize that that's the only one that I had come true without asking.
I realize that I am now unconsciously stating what I prefer and etc. In reality, I shouldn't. I don't expect anything. lol...I don't want anything that comes just because I ask for it. I want it to come naturally...

So Jennifer, wake up. You've seen what you like. They just don't come together. There's a loss, and there's a gain. To have both is a 1% chance in your world.

I won't speak out what my preferences are anymore. They exist only in my dreams. I can't control what I want to happen, because attempting to do so...they will never come out right. If they're meant to come, then they will come....just perfectly.

Leave them behind. Relive them in writings, movies, etc.

haha you're truly lucky KV :] I honestly would trade my life for a day to live your dreamy life. It doesn't matter how many days I live...as long as I know and feel what happiness is really like...and live my dreams in reality permanently...that's all I need. No regrets.

(: jen-jen