♥ Daily Blog: Randomness Not

People tend to think that everything can be solved, whether it can be solved today or tomorrow. They live by what they think, not always keeping in mind about the fact that not all individuals are the same.

There's a girl who wonders about her purpose for living. An abstruse subject, breaking it down to understand it not only seems impossible but also seems fatuous. Sure, people in general may believe that they live for their family, their friends, and those they care about. Furthermore, they live to achieve something, even when "something" remains a mystery. But not everyone can realize that. Not all individuals can define what they are looking for. Not every person can think positive when he or she knows that everything is not okay.

Why is it that people try to help when they give up in the end? "It's okay, I'll continue some other time," they say. Attempts show nothing when there is no product, for all they mean is "I've done something; it's not like I chose not to do anything." Reality check: "What have you done? Based on the result, what have you done really?" Why is there suicide if people have tried to prevent it from happening, why are there still tears when compliments have been given, and why is pain still felt when "medicine" has been taken?

It's true that not all things can be better. Perhaps the answer to all those previous questions is that the final factor is the person's own decision and thoughts. However, there is always a way to heal all problems. If one truly has the desire and willingness to help, even the rarest route can be found.

She has always wanted a refined comeliness that is one of a kind. She has always searched for some kind of perfection in her life. "What is the purpose of my life," she asks herself. Feeling abject depression, she tries to create a purpose by bringing joy to others' faces. A simple task, yet so bland and common. "Who are you?"

One's lamentations are not always worth to ignore. Sometimes one may try to find the answers in his or her own regrets and sorrows. Other times, profound sadness is all one can live in. Others may say certain things, but such words are weightless. Have they experienced all the obstacles that the person has gone through? Have they even live through all of them? Do not say how one person should feel or should do if you yourself have not even the slightest clue or idea about what is supposed to be done.

Desiring and hoping for someone to understand is like waiting for a muted person to finally talk. Wishing to appear in this way or that way to the other person is like looking for someone whose destination is unknown. To dream is to destroy, and to love is to shed tears. Happiness is only a mere rainbow that reveals itself every once in a while. Even so, it is rare.

There are times when one may say that everything is okay, but in reality, he or she is living in an endless fire. But above all things, the person may have insinuated through his or her expression or actions that he or she is not well.

Is it not acceptable to compare oneself to others? Is it not fine to wonder what it will be like to have that kind of life, that kind of family, and that kind of appearance? Is it not okay to dream something that one will never have? A desire to drift in the fantasy world, far away from the cruel and blinded darkness of reality...a desire to smile a genuine smile just for that moment and only that moment.

It isn't envy, it isn't anger. It is purely hope and dream.

When a person loves someone, he or she would go through floods and deserts just to bring a resolution to the quagmire.

Some things cannot be left waiting. "I'll do that later, I'll say that later." In the meantime, something could happen. What is the importance of words afterward? What is the significance of actions afterward? There is only a zero that can never be replaced.


"I'm busy, I'll talk to that person later. I'm sure ____ will be okay."

Minutes later.

"____ is gone."

O_O "How?'

Neglected.


Well hey, the person should be okay. He or she says so. Plus, it's not like he or she never went through it before, right?

Negative. There are certain times where humans can say one thing but contradicts it with their behavior or expression. The purpose? Varies. Furthermore, just because someone has gone through "it" before, doesn't mean that he or she wants to go through it again.

I just realize that a true lover would sacrifice his or her needs just to get something...even the smallest thing done, because who he or she loves is worth more than one can ever imagine. At least, that's what true love is about, right?

Well, looks like not everyone can find a true lover. And it's okay. Not.

After several hours...Jen will now officially sign off.

(: jen-jen