♥Daily Blog: Back

For the past two weeks, I've been gaming almost every hour.

Even now, I'm still not ready to blog "Dear T" yet.

In a way, I guess I've been trying to run away. I've been hoping that gaming will ease the pain and will take my mind off things.

I mean, it works for him, right?

But last night, I had a dream. I had a dream about him.

Suddenly, I woke up and decided to blog again.

In the end, as always, running away from the problem doesn't solve anything whatsoever.

From the very, very bottom of my heart...I still love him very much. A teardrop drops every now and then. I can't control it.

Heck, right now, as I'm typing this, I'm literally crying. Is there a reason behind it? Must there be a reason?

I don't know.

Even if I no longer care, no longer remember, and no longer need...

As long as that flame still burns underneath my stone exterior...

That love will make me care again, remember again, and yearn again.

Speaking of love, I've been loving Miki more and more each day. Though I've been gaming all day long, I always took the time to shower him and pet him often throughout the day. I spend time with him a lot more than usual.

I guess I've been treasuring the time I have with him more now. I love him a lot. Everyone else may love Coco, but even if I love Coco too...

I love Miki a lot more...everyone else may not give him as much attention...

But no worries...

I got him. He's about 4-5 years old (our number of years) now. If one day he's no longer here in this world..

I don't want to regret anything. So now, I'm holding him, hugging him...kissing him..

Like there's no tomorrow.

And I do that everyday.