Ignore the title of this post.
I won't be writing it until the second post.
So like I've promised myself to write today, I shall.
So indeed, I have raised my rank.
On Tuesday, I've found the opportunity to hand my letters.
One for one person, another for another person.
One of the letters, however, was in form of a card that I made.
Typical me, right?
On Monday morning, the person whom I gave the card to, messaged me. I was surprised. Really, now? I mean, usually people just take what I give them...
No thank yous much...no big deal.
When I read that message, I felt really appreciated for the thing I did. I mean...I stayed up until 4AM to get it done, and of course, I wouldn't let that person know how long it took, right?
But yeah...
The title of the message read "thank you soooo much!"
The content, however, was more in depth.
"....it means the world to me what you wrote! And I'm sorry it took this long for me to read LOL I was really busy today and was able to read it not too long ago. It made me laugh a few times! (which is what I needed, i got pulled over today at LQ's grad D:) Thank you x1,000,000! Your words are too kind :}"
I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw this. Throughout my life, everytime I made things for people, I never really get such a complete thank you. Thus, up until today, I thought...hours of hard work making something wasn't a big deal..i thought the things I do were useless.
After reading this message, I felt happy. I felt happy that I could make someone smile...but I felt happier knowing that that person actually sees through my "simple" card.
The person made my efforts and lack of sleep...worth it.
I almost cried too =/ A simple card with a few words...I never knew that it could cheer a person up at the right time...
I grew up...hearing bad things about myself..
to make matters worse, I fell in love with a guy who, instead of emphasizing my good qualities to others, talked down on me behind my back.
But anyway....I'm glad...I'm glad that there's still a reason for me to continue to make things for people.
After reading it, I got up and got ready for graduation.
I came to school early to rehearse with the choir.
Then..it was time.
I got the opportunity to sit in the front...and not just that...the first row! I'm so thankful to my partner lol. She was like "hey...there's a spot, wanna go? let's go!"
haha.
So yeah.
After graduation...I went around to take pictures. My parents came...but...they weren't that happy but eh..
Anyway...so yeah...I was right.
If i want a graduation bear and graduation hello kitty...i have to get it later...on my own..
Sister didn't come.
And I later found out...
that tuan didn't come either.
Hearing that...for some reason...depresses me.
He made me go to his last year.
Sure, even though to him, I am nothing to him anymore, doesn't mean that he should be this way and not even attend to my graduation.
Then again...I do remember how he said that he would only accept my ticket to go.
Then again...if he really did want to go, he would have called, aimed me up and ask me.
But no.
Somehow, knowing that he didn't even go...
tells me the real person he is inside. It also tells me that...he is completely over me, and that there's nothing going on anymore.
I guess deep down, I still hope that we both love each other.
But yeah, silly right?
After all, I thought that graduation would be the last time I get to see him, since he said "trust me, this isn't the last time you'll see me."
I mean...I thought I could get a picture with him too...
To complete whatever i value.
I suddenly realize that...there are no more assumptions, no more guesses, and no more hopes.
It is final. He no longer cares.
But I stood tall, didn't cry. I gave everyone the illusion that I was happy.
Besides...how I can tell others to be happy if i don't show them that I am?
"Be happy," seems to be my quote nowadays.
Anyway...
I love Guppy's <3
I can't wait until I can drive the freeway so I can go there and eat! yummmyy
But..
Anyway...I didn't have a graduation dinner. Parents cancelled it because they got pissed.
So...I had nothing.
My graduation? It wasn't special.
I'm glad...his was.
Am i worth anything to this world? No.
I don't even mean a thing to anyone.
At least, not to the people I truly care about.
Unrequested and unwanted. But, I'll keep it, since I did promise last year that I'll save him one. This goes to my precious box, locked away.Anyway...ahh..I'm going to smile every time I think about what happened the moment I exited out the door after my pop concert ended.
Clap clap, woooo~
