♥Daily Blog: A Look Into Your Mind

"Find a real guy: A guy who won’t give up on you, who will keep chasing you ‘til he gets you, who will keep doing the things he did when he was chasing you, who will fight for you and your love, a guy who will not only tell you he loves you, but shows it."

Perhaps he will never come back.

And I understand if he won't. I understand if he doesn't want to.

Perhaps he's been wondering... "Why couldn't you be this way, why didn't you do what you're willing to do now?"

And all I can say is...

Sometimes space is needed in order to figure out who and what is important in life.

I know he doesn't treat me right anymore, but still, a memory of whom he used to be still lingers.

I guess I'm hoping that somewhere deep deep down inside him, he still loves me.

I believe that true love will motivate you and guide you to do things that seem to be impossible to do.

Furthermore, sometimes you have to give someone a second chance or even a third chance, because you'll never know what kind of person you'll be missing the next time around.

Nobody is perfect, but I feel that my love for him is perfect.

I'm not lost; I just don't want to walk on this road without him. Despite all the things he did, I still love him.

I don't just stop loving him.

And I understand that he may never come back. I understand that he'd probably wonder why I didn't do what I'm willing to do now.

I'm willing to bend to his needs, and I know the things he do make me unhappy; however, being with him makes me happy. I want to be by his side while seeing him happy.

I love him very much, and I'll prove how far my love for him will take me if he just gives it another try.

He and I have been through so much together; it's not worth to throw all of that away.

I've been completing myself, and I realize that I don't want a life without him.

And I guess...that's the answer. The reason why I didn't do what I'm willing to do now is that I didn't realize how much he means to me.

Well, okay...he means a lot to me...and I already know that. But, what I'm trying to say is...

I didn't know that even through TIME, my love for him still remains fresh.

I guess when you truly want to be with someone, you'd be willing to do a lot just to be with that someone.

My happiness doesn't really matter. His happiness matters. My happiness is his happiness. However, it would be very awesome...if he and I can walk hand in hand once again.

I know I SOUND weak; but...I don't think I am.

I'm strong...I'm strong because lately, I've been loving him from afar and not breaking down like a hopeless girl.

I understand that he may never come back.

But I just want him to know that I would fulfill his wishes if he gives the relationship another try.

I know I should have been like this back then, but....

I guess I needed some time on my own, and I didn't realize that I needed my own time to think things through. Now that I have thought things through, I realize that what matters to me most is seeing him happy.
But, to me, love can bring great joy in someone's life...

And I want to be the one to bring that joy in his life...

I guess...

Not to be conceited but..

I trust myself.

I trust myself more now.

I trust myself that I can be someone he wants.

We're not perfect...

To me..

What matters most is where I end up.

These past two months..

have led me to understand so much better about what my love can do.

This is where I have end up.

Many times I tell him that I love him a lot...and many times I show him that I do love him a lot...

Many times he doesn't see them...

So I guess...I have to do a better job to help him see..

If he still loves me...at all...

Don't be afraid.

Tolerating the things he do...I can do so. Why? It's because I love him.
I don't understand why I still love him...but I just do.
I guess even with who he is now...

I still love him.

Flaws and all.

Otherwise, I would have given up already.

But no. I still love him.

Flaws and all.