♥Daily Blog: Sleepy (Pt.2)

For the first time in my life, my mother apologized to me in a very kind and sincere way.

Out of all people in my life, SHE turned out to be the first one who can see through my few outrages from time to time.

I don't really yell anymore but rather..
I state things bluntly when I'm in pain.

Rather than looking down at me when i'm mad
She finally saw through me, no matter what i say...what i do.

And then..i saw a bit of myself too..
i look in the mirror and under all that "bad behavior" attitude..

I saw a girl who was crying inside...a girl who had sacrificed..a girl who had tried...but wasn't appreciated, rejected

And then...I remember reading stories...
Those cold and aloof characters...
Turned out to have the most caring and sensitive soul of all people

Those characters who seem mean when mad..turned out to be in the most pain

Am I really like that? When I act completely different when i'm mad...yet...i'm still the same person inside...just really really...eh...

But Mother saw through that today...i was crying inside while trying to be "tough" and "aloof" on the outside.

For the first time, I felt somewhat understood. Maybe if the person i love can understand me and see through my unusual behavior from time to time...

Perhaps I'll become a better person faster...

Well...a few more weeks? two more weeks? i hope he can tell me what he thinks i should do by then...

i hope he initiates...
i hope he still loves me.

I hope he and I can be together again...and be the sweet couple that he and i once were.
I hope this wait is worth it. I hope my hopes will come true.
I hope my efforts pay off.

and if he no longer loves me for he doesn't want to be with me..

Then i hope the many good things i said about him in that video...

Will make him feel happy and appreciated. (of course..i hope he feels that way anyway)

♥ If ppl belong together, they should meant to be together.
If ppl are meant for each other, they should be belong together.

measure of love? based on how much you will do for the other person while never having to ever feel tired.