♥Daily Blog: Lol

"Don’t ever let a girl’s efforts for you end in vain. If you love her, take note of the little things she does. When she lets you see her without her makeup, when she brings you your favorite food or drink just because, when she whines softly that she’s cold or that she wants a kiss, when she runs her fingers through your hair. There are probably a million other things she’ll do for you because she loves you, because she wants to, and she will never ask for your acknowledgment of them; but understand that one day she may feel unappreciated, unloved; neglected by your lack of gratitude towards these little things, and may stop. Remember all the reasons why you love her, and remember to appreciate them. You know that saying, you never know what you had until it’s gone. Don’t take her love for granted. "

I looked forward to today, huh? I was nervous the whole time, looking at every single person who walked through the door. He didn't come.

lol I did my hair today, curled my whole hair...

It was my last concert...my last time singing up there as a group like this.
Didn't he say that he'll be at the spring concert months ago? He missed the fall concert...and he told me he'll be at the spring one.

lol.

I'm not angry, but rather, disappointed. Very disappointed. And since the longest time, i finally revealed my disappointment as it is. I didn't disguise it through anything else. I held my tears.
I told him what I would have done. I was straightforward.

I looked forward to the evening since last week. I kept playing this scene in my head over and over again.

I would catch him coming in, and then give him my purse so he can keep it safe for me. After the concert, he would be waiting in his seat..standing up and make sure i see him. I would then make my way through the crowd and then dash into his arms to give him a very tight hug.
I would whisper "Thank you so much for coming. I know it's boring, i know you have homework, but you came. No one ever came to my concert and support me. I'm so glad I have you. You are enough."

And then we would take a picture. My last picture in a formal.

lol it was nice dreaming about it...i couldn't keep still in my seat. i was looking forward to show him my appreciation...

lol. and I watch others' boyfriends coming...watched the whole thing..

And there I was...eager to get off the stage and find MY boyfriend...

It was all a dream. There isn't going to be a next time anymore...no more...that's just...it...