♥Daily Blog: Tired...

too many things on my mind...

i feel so sad, so empty, so lonely...

I really miss the guy back then...

i mean...the relationship should improve and grow right...

why did it go downhill...

and now he's not back...

so many things still unsettled...

If you really love someone....time isn't anything.

Time usually heals hearts that are broken...hearts that have only love but not truly love...

one thing i know for sure is...

If you truly love somebody, you'll always love that person. You'll still feel the pain no matter how much time passes by.

Thus...time plays a different role in a true loving relationship.

If you truly love somebody, treasure the time...you'd want to spend every moment you have with that person...

because life is short...use every second you have with that person...use time well..

I guess that's one thing i realize. Ppl say that time will heal, but it really depends on what the situation/feeling is. Ppl don't know anything well as much as you and your lover do.

Only you will know if you truly love that person. And only that person will know if she/he truly loves you back.

Sure, if two ppl in a relationship love each other a lot, and if the relationship shatters...

ppl will say "Give it time." However, TIME will only work if those two aren't soulmates. Time will ONLY work if the love between them is NOT true love.

But time will not work...if those two are soulmates...time will not work if those two have true love toward one another.

True love is more than just a fantasy. It is real, it is unconditional love that is new and forever permenant.

I don't know...if he truly loves me.
All i know is...some things are just...untouched...i wish when he apologized...he touched every subject so my mind won't be suffering...

But most of all...WHAT I DO know now is...

I really do love this guy...and if the guy in him can come back and if all the subjects are touched and settled...and he truly improves this time...and he keeps those promises well.

Then i'll be one lucky girl.

But if nothing happens...

Then...he's telling me that he doesnt want to be with me.

I know that time will never make me stop loving him. Ever.

He's the person i really love...so even if one day something happens (which i hope not)

I know that i'll still love him.

But hey...

Maybe he'll slowly apologize and touch on other things...maybe he'll tell me what else he realize...

Maybe tomorrow, maybe the next...

I just hope soon...

otherwise...

idk...

I just really really miss the old guy...i felt accompanied, i felt loved....

I've never felt this way toward anybody before...and i don't want to feel this toward anybody else but him...

In my eyes....he has the guy in him (well used to) that i really want to be with...

I love him very much.