♥Daily Blog: Reaching Out (Pt.4)

Sometimes, i don't know what am i supposed to do...

i love him, and even though his choice is to not be with me...

somehow...as i accept his answer...i feel as though i'm suiciding a part of me too...

What am I supposed to do?

Why is it always like this..

Everytime when something needs to be done, it doesn't get done.

And I just can't stand how things are never settled...

Heaven knows that i care about him...giving him a headache just breaks my own heart...i hate to see him suffer...i hate to see him sick...

This is my precious man we're talking about -_-

If...IF he really does love me and want to be with me....why can't he just find that part of him once again...

It's so easy...if you want to be with that person....you'd do ANYTHING to be with that person...and heck...i'm not asking for much...

all i ask is true love...

because if he truly loves me...he would only want me...and i would be his addiction...

he wouldn't want to hurt me if he loves me...

he would like to see me happy with him....

Why must he make things so complicated....i've already sacrificed the perfect relationship i want....

i mean...even if he does change and things are better.....the relationship will never reach it's pure perfection due to his past mistakes...

Think about it....

I would most likely choose to have a perfect relatoinship where my partner has never hurt me in the lifetime...

But i rather stay in a relationship that starts off rocky...but ends up well...because a healthy relatoinship enables us to grow..

what does he want me to do...

he knows i care about him...and now he has a headache....how are things going to be settled...