♥Daily Blog: Perfect Thursday

So today we ate popcorn chicken, drank japanese green milk tea, and advocado milkshake!

Then post office.

then the block.

The forever 21

Then Brea Mall.

It was tiring for him, but...hey...it's my last time shopping with him! Bought three hats (will return one), a winter formal dress, cinnamoroll growth thing, green hello kitty, and suspenders.

anyway...i think...he knows that the relationship will end soon...and he seems to want it.

So i guess he's not going to change back cause he doesn't want to be with me.

All the signs say so. I'm positive.

He was about to call in sick for Saturday. Why would he do that? I guess somehow he picked up my hints and know that saturday's the last day...and it is the last because he's okay with it.

What can i do right? I mean...this is his choice...so...yeah...i know i'll cry...i know i will...cause he never loved me.

plus, he bought me a lot of things, so...idk why o.o cause it's the last time..

And then...he gave me the cell phone money...why would he do that unless he knows that he's out of time?
Anyway...cell pgone...i knew it was too good to be true..

He spent a lot of me...strange huh? And then handed me the p.o. box key o.o and then...plans to take a day off on saturday?

wow...

and he ignores my saying on buddy info last time...

lol...i guess...he's letting me know that he'll never change back nor improve....because he doesn't want to be with me...and now...he's just going along with me...making the best of the days...

lol it hurts.
to know that he doens't love me...

then he says "faith"

i had faith in the relationship...i had faith during summer...and then...did he pull through? no...he did worse things...in december...when he crawled back...i had faith in this month...and then January 14, 2010 happened...

Faith is dumb. Actually, it's just hopeless to have faith in him because...he doesn't love me o.o it's that simple...i mean..no matter how much i smile...no matter how much i keep things smooth...he STILL acts as if...i'm not of any importance to him.

Now he tells me to have faith...

i'm done with faith...

nothing tells me that there IS hope.

i had faith in myself...i had faith in the relationship...but...

now...there's just nothing.

anyway....i kinda told him that it was okay to read this blog....then i changed my mind. i think he knows what's coming already...and he seems fine with it...well what can i say? if he doesn't want to be with me, there you go.

so yeah...i never gave him this new address though...so...phew?

idk...i'm sad...but...can't wait for tm...