♥Daily Blog: My Mentor Asks Me a Question

Mentor: i already know..
he was a sweet boy and he treated u very well..
u fell in love with him
but u found out he was lying behind ur back..
even after u gave him a chance he still continues to lie to u...
u really hope that hes change right??

Me: i do...i've been forgiving...
always giving him
room
to reflect
and change
when he makes mistakes


Mentor:
if u are conflicting with the fact that he's not going to change for u... than regardless of how many times u forgive him, hes gonna go back to the way things was
this hope can last foreever
let me ask u something
u can honstly tell me that u are hoping and waiting for u to change forever if thats how long its gonna take...
him*

Me: tbh...i didn't know that i was hoping for over six months...i didn't realize that i continued hoping for so long
everyone
deserves a chance
and...
not many ppl
give that chance..
i try my best to be a better person for him...
i try to bend to his needs
i gave him room
room to reflect
to learn
to understand

MY mentor:
but he failed so why still linger..
u are hurting
i am trying to help u..
as ur mentor..
i gave u a choice to just move on and let go of ur pain
but u choose to hang on to it...
even if he has change, the time for u is to move on
let him change for someone else..
uve done enough for him already
and uve hurting urself..

Why are ppl giving up on him so easily...there's still tomrow...even through all this pain...if he does find that part of him once agan and change for the better...

All of this would be worth it...

Then again...maybe i'm just really optimistic...

or should i say...

truly love him..