♥Daily Blog: Just as I thought

he has a cell phone now...

calling others, others calling him

And even though i just asked to browse around his cell tm...

deep inside..i know that he will be deleting stuff...

so why must i ask when i know that he's lying to me still?

Because i want him to lie to my face one more time.
Decieve me one more time.

I want to see if he still has the guts to do so.

That's the only way to know if right now...he's realizing something...or not.

But today...he walked pass me...when I squealed at the moment I saw the software i wanted...

I didn't expect him to get it for me, but...I thought he would feel the same joy as i feel...

But as far as i can see, he only cares about his business...even when i left, he never turned to find me.

I can see it in his eyes.

If there is any love left in his heart...

it's dying.

Perhaps...he really does want to leave me in the end. So...was his friend right? He never loved me at all...
He had stopped wanting me and loving me...a long time ago...right...

I can see it dying, but I can't interfere. I've done enough, and if he doesn't want to be with me...then...it's okay.

I was just unfortunate in life, then.

But if in the end, his friend is wrong and he DOES want to be with me...then perhaps I am fortunate.

But seeing today...the way his co-workers ignore me, the way he didn't care

I can see it.

Though I'm cherishing every moment, all these moments are just empty because love is absent, the guy in him is absent.