♥Daily Blog: My 491th Post

September 2008

I don't know you well, but everything seems to happen as if they were meant to
happen.
You have been an amazing lab partner.I do the reading and analyzing, while you
take my words and turn them into something real. And I admit that we work
extremely well together.

You're one of the funniest yet sweetest guy I know. I wonder if there will be
something for us in the future...

October 2008

As each day passes by, we talk to each other more...I can't believe how fast
you've gotten to know me. Seriously...and you're honest too! I'm glad to have
found someone who values honesty as much as I do. I don't have to worry
about lies now.

I cna't believe he actually got up and grabbed a paper towel to wipe my
hand. I was like O_O
So romantic-ish (: He rescued me from my falling schoolbooks too...

That's when...he stole my heart...completely...

November 2008

He asked me out at midnight...and the way he asked me out was very cute.
I remember how he and I held hands...how he hugged me..how he kissed my
hand.

And...I remember how the first kiss went too. The way he leaned in gently...

How our lips touched...I was trembling...he looked brave...

There was defintely attraction between us...I feel comfortable...being with
him...I feel comfortable with him touching me.

No, I feel comfotable with my body and his body leaning against each other.

He french kissed me too! Feels kind of awkward though...

December 2008

Christmas was here. I found him the perfect shirt. First time spending
sooo much on somebody. Oh yeah...I finished with the calender! My...
sure want it for myself (:

Oh yeah...he told me that there was a spark of fire for him (: and he
wrote me some poems...he bought me grams too...first grams i ever
received in hs o.o

lol it was so nice...sitting on his lap...in the cold...

such a nice feeling i don't ever want to leave from..

January 2009

He and I have our first big fight -_- he was...about to leave me too...

I wanted to suicide so badly...

but...he kept calling me...eh...

Wait...he really does care about me...doesn't he...i can't believe..he's crying...

I feel so horrible.

February 2009

He didn't say Happy _Months...before i did -_- our third month
anniversary too!
Oh well...omgosh...he gave me a very nice letter...and lot of presents
leading up to Valentine's day.
My foot hurt so badly but he was there and patient with me all the way (:

He's sooo romantic...such a sweet surprise..

March 2009

I think...we did it...for the first time or something...we explored our bodies...

I feel so safe with him...

He asked me to marry him (: i love the way he proposed...

"Will you marry me?" he choked through his tears...as he pulled my neck
toward his shoulder....

...........i can't say...how touched...i was...

April 2009

We went to photosticker today (I paid though). lol found a very nice pic but
too bad it's small..

Haha...we've been walking to so many places together...i treasured every
moment.

we had a picnic too! oh....and he surprised me one saturday morning by coming
to pick me up...to hang with me (: he bought me a sandwich. yumm

I love him lots <3 style="font-weight: bold;">May 2009

Prom! he gave me a rose...smelled sooo good...omgosh...we look so good
together...oh yeah....
Hana Yori Dango!
he hugs me still (:

June 2009

He graduated...but...I got to be in his pics...lol he's so sweet...i went to
his dinner too...

tehe (:
oh...but...i almost had to leave...everything was within my power...

until he evesdropped on me while i was on my cell...

then again...he cried...-_- he pulled me back...wanted me to stay...

I didn't know...that he loved me...still..

July 2009

This is the best month of my life...

We went to the beach! we're officially together again...and he made
promises...

that melt my heart...

I still feel insecure...but i'm sure i'll be okay by next year! He's patient
with me...and accepts his mistakes (:

oh...poor him...he thought he lost the cell phone accessory i bought him...

can't believe he was looking for it everywhere...and then bought me a
gift to make it up...

all along it was in my folder...didn't see it until the next day -________-

poor him..but..wow..

He really does care about me..

August 2009

My birthday was the best birthday ever...

The restaurant..the gift...

Heaven knows how happy i was...

The movie..

I love him...so much...i feel loved too!

September 2009

lol He still comes on time ish...maybe things aren't so bad...he's driving
me to school in the morning...perhaps he and i will never be apart...i
love the way he takes care of me...

I feel...really safe...from the world...

October 2009

things have changed a bit...but...we're still good...yummy tofu!

November 2009

He got me a beautiful cinnamoroll for the anniversary...the way he
did it...oh well...

I love Traynor! oh...he actually want to make up for the day he couldn't come...

Maybe he's still there...somewhere..

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And those...are my recorded optimistic memories.

He should stop saying that he loves me now, when he really doesn't. I am not
stupid to read his actions.

He's a completely different person.

I do not believe in the fact that the reason he doesn't want to answer me
when i ask him questions is that he loves me.

He knows fairly well of what I believe. Stop making excuses.

I've been considerate enough of him.

A relationship blossoms when two people are open and honest to each other,
when two people are loyal and do not keep things from each other, when
two people keep their promise

It is an act of selfishness to hide and use the lame excuse "I don't want to
hurt you"

When really, all the person is doing is trying to save his or herself from things.

It's not up to me anymore. If you want me in your life, you'll find a way
to put me there.