I'd...give up my life...just to live in that happiness period again...I'd give up my life...just to see that guy...laugh with him...again. That's...how much..I miss him..:
T (11:29:40 PM) : jen
T (11:29:40 PM) : jen
T (11:29:49 PM) : u ahve already whipped me
T (11:29:57 PM) : i promised not to talk to other girls
T (11:29:57 PM) : i promised not to talk to other girls
T (11:30:05 PM) : and promised u things u like
T (11:30:05 PM) : and
T (11:30:13 PM) : i have been keeping them
T (11:30:18 PM) : and will keep them
T (11:30:38 PM) : while i nvr ask u to promise anything
T (11:30:42 PM) : u can do whatever u want
T (11:30:54 PM) : u run ur own life and mine
T (11:33:01 PM) : and i appreciate everything u have done for me
T (11:33:09 PM) : u are a very hard worker
T (11:33:14 PM) : in this relationsip
T (11:33:26 PM) : and i am striving to be as good as u
T (11:33:26 PM) : :]
T (11:33:32 PM) : each day
T (11:33:41 PM) : i pour every ounce of my heart
T (11:33:54 PM) : to produce to u the perfect love
T (11:34:12 PM) : to be the perfect healer
"Jen, no matter what happens, I will always see problems as things that we need to get out of the way for a better future." I wish...he said it online too...but he only said it outside...the only evidence i have...is my memory...
I want this...
T (11:39:12 PM) : lets forget about the topic for now
J (11:39:12 PM) : i apologized
J (11:39:14 PM) : from the heart
T (11:39:18 PM) : and
J (11:39:20 PM) : and u can tell
T (11:39:27 PM) : see if i will apologized
T (11:39:30 PM) : out of the blue
T (11:39:38 PM) : just one day
T (11:39:41 PM) : mention it to me
T (11:39:46 PM) : and
T (11:39:53 PM) : see what happens kays dear? (current jen says: KAY =D *sigh* i want to hug him so badly now...so happy...even when...it's not in...the present)
T is available (11:48:58 AM)
Nej is a Gorgeous woman :]
Nej is a Gorgeous woman :]
T (11:48:57 AM) : hey hun
J (11:49:02 AM) : hey
T (11:49:03 AM) : sorry i woke up kinda late x.x
J (11:49:06 AM) : oh
J (11:49:08 AM) : it's ok
T (11:49:11 AM) : well
T (11:49:21 AM) : i just wanted to wish u a great day
T (11:49:25 AM) : :]
J (11:49:29 AM) : oh
J (11:49:32 AM) : i hoope u have
J (11:49:34 AM) : a good day
J (11:49:36 AM) : at work
T (11:49:43 AM) : ill be home at like 9ish
J (11:49:49 AM) : okie
T (11:49:56 AM) : I LOVE YOU!!!! <33333
J (11:49:59 AM) : i love you too!
T (3:36:47 PM) :[Offline IM sent 55m ago] Id rather talk with u xP
T (3:37:33 PM) :[Offline IM sent 54m ago] yeah
T (3:38:31 PM) :[Offline IM sent 53m ago] as much as i like to spend time with u mom is not gonna let me x.x and you are my best friend xP sigh if u are on call me :]
T (11:47:03 PM) : I LOVE YOU JENNIFER NGUYEN VU <3333333>
I want this...
Peace...without hope and love...is like food...without nutrition.
In truth...I just want peace and love. I agree with him...that we exist for love...but I also believe that...we exist to love uncondionally. Each of us...has one person...whom he or she will love...no matter what happens...
To love without conditions...to give yourself up mentally and physically...you allow yourself to be vulnerable...but..you trust that person...and you love that person with all your heart. I have found that person..and sadly, i may not be his person.
I think...i just want..peace...perhaps...i exist to give love...but to not be loved uncondionally by the person i care so much. He is my soft spot...
I wish...I were his soft spot...
I just want peace...what's the point in trying anymore. I'm not a person who gives up so easily...and if right now...I'm giving up..clearly...one can tell that I've given my all and tried with all the strength i have.
Love....i dont need love...everyone hates me...but i don't care...he hates me...he doesn't look at me positively anymore...things aren't the same anymore...and i care. Face it...the person who helped me find myself...isn't here anymore. And I'm not appreciated. I am a burden.
I...give up...
If he still loves me the same way and care about the relationship the same way....I wouldn't be still trying so hard right now
Even when I cried...he doesn't care...he doesn't care...at all.
I will never...see that bracelet on his wrist again...nor will I ever see him using the cell phone accessory that i bought for him.
I will never see...the genuine and loving quote on his status again.
I will never see myself again, and I will never smile as I used to anymore.
He willl never make love to me like he used to again, nor will he desire me...kiss me with that passion again
There will..always be something missing now...he will hide things....
I don't...I don't have him anymore...he's not mine...not mine anymore...
And...he and I will never hang out on the weekends anymore....
There will never be...the anniversary celebration...
I may...never...have his answer...
I give up...he has already given up...not willing...to erase that image he has of me...off his head.
Even when I continue...to try...he hates me.
He hates me...and he hates us. That's what it seems...and he's not doing anything about what it seems...then...perhaps...it is reality.
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T (9:52:23 PM) : i took care of it all
J (9:52:33 PM) : um
J (9:52:36 PM) : ok
J (9:52:39 PM) : thanks
T (9:52:41 PM) : haha
T (9:52:44 PM) : sure
T (9:52:50 PM) : its all for my girl :]
T (10:29:36 PM) : today is a model day
T (10:29:44 PM) : a near perfect day
T (10:29:47 PM) : maybe one day
T (10:29:56 PM) : ull get ur perfect day
T (10:29:57 PM) : and then
J (10:30:01 PM) : it's ok
T (10:30:03 PM) : all i have to do is
J (10:30:06 PM) : i don't know
T (10:30:07 PM) : repeat :]
T(10:31:54 PM) : u know
T (10:32:00 PM) : ur happiness is everything to me
T (10:32:01 PM) : so
T (10:32:06 PM) : i will take it seriously
Seriously....as i'm reading...i swear...i was smiling...wishing it was real...thought that that same guy is still here...
I cant' believe...how reading...how seeing...remembering...reminiscing about this guy...how happy...i am now...
but before i kjnow...i would cry...for he is no longer here...
T (10:29:36 PM) : today is a model day
T (10:29:44 PM) : a near perfect day
T (10:29:47 PM) : maybe one day
T (10:29:56 PM) : ull get ur perfect day
T (10:29:57 PM) : and then
J (10:30:01 PM) : it's ok
T (10:30:03 PM) : all i have to do is
J (10:30:06 PM) : i don't know
T (10:30:07 PM) : repeat :]
T(10:31:54 PM) : u know
T (10:32:00 PM) : ur happiness is everything to me
T (10:32:01 PM) : so
T (10:32:06 PM) : i will take it seriously
T is available (6:47:34 PM)
Hamster Couple!!!!!!! I lol oh voice ew yuck on um jay every nothing
Hamster Couple!!!!!!! I lol oh voice ew yuck on um jay every nothing
T (6:46:41 PM) :[Offline IM sent 1m ago] Haha thanks love :]]]
T (6:46:54 PM) :[Offline IM sent 1m ago] my day wasnt great
T (6:46:59 PM) :[Offline IM sent 1m ago] yet.... :P
J (6:47:43 PM) : lol
J (6:47:45 PM) : ic
T (6:48:07 PM) : haha
T (6:48:14 PM) : yay its great now :]
Seriously....as i'm reading...i swear...i was smiling...wishing it was real...thought that that same guy is still here...
I cant' believe...how reading...how seeing...remembering...reminiscing about this guy...how happy...i am now...
but before i kjnow...i would cry...for he is no longer here...
