♥ Daily Blog: Mouth Shut (Pt.2)

Not many words left to say...I've said too much...but none of the words got into his head.

I guess...there's not much left to do? I've seen couples celebrating their _ months all the time. They would go out to a special place and do something fun. Anything unique just to make that certain day special.

I remember my friend's bf waited until midnight to say happy _ months.

August has NO holiday. Not anything major. However , to me, every month has a holiday. Every first.

I'm sure...if it were special to him, I would see it the same way he sees his birthday, Christmas, or Valentine's Day.

I don't get it.

Anyway...i'm soo hungry. Eating sweets all day -_- and I absolutely hateeee unhealthy food but i have no choice. ugh. i'm going to die early.

I took a walk around Target. I found a magic eight ball! 7-8 bucks >.< rawr.

and then i found a cutteeee hello kitty lamb beanie plush. 7 bucks.

rawr. i still have some money i found last time...but i can only pick one...*sigh*

Right now I just spent 4 hours picking colors. So like, this is big. Super big. What if...just what if...something happens to us...that thing would be wasted. I'm making something that acts like a ring but isn't a ring.

Four hours. Perfect. But now...I realized it might look wayy too girly on him.

"Guys would say anything. He might say he like it since you made it, but deeep down, he doesn't. It's a girl thing and it's colorful."

I'm so scared now. What if he doesn't like it for reals and will like it just because I made it? ....

I still have not finished it. I just briefly sketched it in my mind -__-

so tired.

I'm not sure if it will go to waste one day or not. If I can see the future and see that we are happily lasting together until the very end of time, I wouldn't hesitate making it >.<

I'm not sure...whawt to do...one, it's girly and he might not like it. Two, would it bring us luck? Three, are he and i...forever and ever and ever...

i'm scared...
this is a big thing i'm doing...now i'm just staring at it...not sure what to do next.

life sucks. can't handle family.

school life's ruined. my grades are dead.

goals are kind of scattered.

love life's kind of...confusing.

i'll always be there for that someone...when i look around...why do i see myself as the only one who doesn't have anyone there?