♥ Daily Blog: Gotta Keep Moving

Cramps.

I had the worst cramps today in my whole entire lifetime so far! Ugh...hate it...it's that time of the month...and cramps for this month are such a handful.

blehh..yet....I covered that issue well today, didin't I?

Dang...I HAVE evolved. Usually with small cramps and that time of the month thing, I would be so pissed off,etc. Yet...today...during the worst cramps...I was actually acting better than days that I don't have anything o.o

Eh...today isn't bad. Actually, it's good. My biggest hope crushed right in front of my eyes...

But...thanks to my preparation for how to deal with the fact that my hope DID crash, I'm okay now.

I gotta keep moving. I don't care anymore. I don't care...just don't care about whether he'll give it another try or not anymore...because as much as I want that...as much as I hope for that...if I keep caring...I'll be the ONLY one who values it if it DOES happen. And I don't want to be the one who's giving love more. Heck, I want to be loved for once...more than I have given love. lol but rofl...i highly doubt that anyone can beat the love that i've given xD

unless he can prove me wrong.

But hey, you really don't know what you have until you lose something or until...that something starts to drift away.

True, I didn't know what I had until he went away. BUT...I did realize that...put in hours of thinking each day...putting in effort...etc.

However...it's time for me to continue on walking...

You just don't know what you have in the palm of your hands...until it starts to drift away...

Life is short. Life is really short. When will you finally understand...that each second of life...is a second longer to be with someone...a second longer to live life...a second longer to smile...?

When will you finally realize that I want a happy relationship as much as you do? When will you finally see...the reason why I have a limit to waiting?

Great...I'm talking to nobody *sigh*

Though I still have hope...I gotta keep moving...

To be honest...seeing that he has decided to give it another try once he has his problems solved...has made me tired. My perspective changed a bit. My level of hope weakened. In order for things to be good, he needs to treat it like it's the first time dating me. He needs to let go of the bad times. He needs to understand that...problems will never stop coming...he needs to realize that...obstacles will keep on coming...and even so, he needs to understand that whatever comes along the way, we face it together..help each other..support each other...and make life the best for each other....

sometimes..you need to see if it's worth your pain..worth your trouble...worth your life...

there's nothing more precious than to risk your life for someone you love...and THAT is another success in life...that is a TRUE character...